I just want to have friends again.

I wish I knew how to connect with people.

I fucked it all up. I have no clue what I'm doing and I fucked it all up. This is it, I'm done.

Life seems so insignificant on a grand scale and yet it is precious. I have looked at the meaning of it from different perspectives and have come to some conclusions, well maybe not conclusions as that just seems so absolute. Here are some of the things I have realized. Religions as a whole are nonsense. I have objectively and pretty thoroughly ( Read more... )

As i sit here alone on a Saturday night i realize its my fault. I've pushed everyone away.

How is everyone. I am now a quarter of a century in age. My palm flower has turned black long ago and I'm feelin it. It seems like I have experienced everything that I am capable of in this life. What is there left when your memories are all old and new ones never seem to happen? Why even stay when it is all a rerun? I do not know, But I will ( Read more... )

all is well

What is it like to feel real? I'm serious. Who is the real me? Sometimes I do not know. Fuck sentence structure, correct punctuation, and grammar. I get deeper and deeper into my own little world and forget there is more out there than what is inside my own mind. I am not me, I am a carefully crafted front of insanity and boisterous doubt. I ( Read more... )

I just found out a friend of mine passed last night. It's funny you think you have all this time to get to know someone and make memories so you push it off and all of a sudden they're gone. I will miss you and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you more than I was.

i miss those days on the porch. nothing but time.