Jan 14, 2012 02:32
So, uh. Hey. People who have known me long enough, could I ask you a question?
...How do you guys feel about, you know, how I grew up and stuff, since I got here.
I don't know, it two in the morning and I can't shake these thoughts. Honest answers appreciated.
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But no, yeah, I guess I'm a little insecure, I guess I just. I keep looking at the past and I'm seeing how... I don't know. Not even idiotic, just. It doesn't feel like... I don't know. I guess I still feel like a mess.
...I don't react too violently.
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But everyone gives me shit.
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But yeah no, the Academy was absolute hell for me. It's like I was basically the go-to guy to punch in the mouth.
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I mean, it's not like I'm all that special in the long run, really.
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You're a still putz, except now you're slightly more insecure.
And you quit dating idiots.
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Meathead.
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And give me an example.
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Geo might have influenced my growth, but I'm still me.
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You've always struck me as well... Trying too hard, a lot of times.
Like you feel that you need to impress or gain the respect of others, and as a result, it sometimes feels forced, on your part.
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If I had to put it in a simpler way, it's always felt like to me that you go for the 9 or 10, when a 6 or 7 would actually do just fine.
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And yet even when I don't try people apparently consider me the worst kind of person, so I don't see what the hell the point is shooting for mediocre when nothing less than absolute success is going to get anyone to treat me like something more than dirt.
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