July Poetry 
Becky M. S. 
Copyrighted 2007

Smoky Death

She sat in the small bathroom
With two lighter
And a box of cigs
This is her story
This is what she did

She was not the prettiest
Or the very best
She never stuck out
From any of the rest

She was attractive
But she was a bitch to all
She thought one person knew her
But that was her fall

He was between ( Read more... )

July Poetry
Becky M.S.
© 2007

7/3/2007

Empty Skeptic

Like bottle with no beer
I feel empty inside
Like a skeptic
With nothing to hide

Nothing feels right anymore
Did he ever care?
I just need to know the truth
So I can more from here.

Argue

I argue
With myself
With a piece of me
Begging for
One moment
Of collective peace
All I can do is scream

Frustrations
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June Poetry
Becky M.S.
© 2007

I Try

I try to please him
I want to make him proud
But all in all
I’m just an ear for another
Uninspiring lecture
A disappointment

Find a job
So I find a job
But it wasn’t
The job he wanted me to have

Get a car
So I found a car
But the car didn’t work
The way he wanted

Get a man
So I got a man
Just like him
And then I left the man

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June Poetry
Becky M.S.
© 2007

6/23/2007
Direction of down

Different direction
All pull me down
Like roller coasters
Without a track
I’m falling
In a fearful ride
Centered hate
Fed with fear and loneliness
It’s not the first time. .. .
I hate life.

Demented Twist

Everyone wanted me to do
Everything
A least it was
Just negative attention
That kept me going
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More than a Dream
To Chris
By Becky MS

This time with you is amazing
It seesm like a dream
You make me feel so special-
So loved
Please be more than just misty streams

Love me forever
Or leave me now
As I take all or nothing
And I can't believe I'm here now

If this a dream
Please don't wake me up
Let me sleep a smile on my face
and content as fuzzy pup

If this ( Read more... )

Tears of rages
Tear of hope
Tears of regret
Tears of pity
Tear of less vs best

Drain out of me
Pulling my emotions
Prolonging my smiles
Expaning my fears

Creating the woman within me
Making me human
Filling my stressful cracks
Tension propelling

Washing me away
Making me new

worthless
and
meaningless
and
fat
and
ugly
and
gone
and
depressed
and
ending
and
sad
and
mad
and
hopeless
and
there . . .
just there . . .
Right now

Telephone Insults

The enemy called to chat with her brother
He is only trouble
She asked,
"Who is this?"
He got annoyed
She had forgotten his voice
She did that on purpose
She wanted the scoundrel out of her city
And out of her life
"Why was he calling her house?"
"What in hell did he want with her brother?"
She mumbles,
"The bastard is on the ( Read more... )

Transferable Pain

Once she was happy . . .
When his arms were wrapped around her,
When she felt the world could stop and disappear
Just because he was there.
Once she was happy . . .
When he would say,
"I love you."
Out of the blue.
Once she was happy . . .
When he would make her laugh
And smile
And blush
And feel good.
Once she was happy . . .
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