well I did privately... maybe soon!

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I have been turning over new leafs (not leaves, bcz its a figure of speech) I am worried I cant keep track of them all. I do feel on the verge of a new approach. Vague, I know. Emily inspired me to try to use LJ again. She has been so faithful. I am not sure I have the bravery to be as open and honest as I see others being. I will give it some ( Read more... )

I managed to kill some time tonight by golly! as if I had it to burn.

I have to many fears and too much guilt perhaps. Im afraid of what I might provoke in people if I allow myself to act and speak without reservation. Im guilty of acting and speaking in ways that are not approved of ( Read more... )

I was awakened by my brother only to find myself in a dream that I was living in the same house as my dad and we were not getting along well and then he said you know Im dying with this tumor dont you (or something like that) in the dream he had a brain tumor. Mustve been something I ate. I know my dad is getting golder and I have been out of touch ( Read more... )

Jen, Emily, James, Amy, Marilyn... maybe another monkey will fall out of the trees

yeah I can get very depressed but that usually is followed by some vengeance and today I was killin' my backlog and if I keep this up I will dig out of a hole. It takes some shit to make me get stirred into action sometimes.

LJ was huge, now about 4-5 of my friends still post here, some of their names I can't even recall instantly. This used to be such a great outlet. Myspace sucked and Facebook isn't good for journalizing. All I can say right now is I hope I can get much happier than I am right now and soon. It will take some fighting and some enough will power to ( Read more... )

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it's my birthday today and this has been a very good week so far