Okay, so I haven't done a life dump in WAY TOO LONG and I am never sure how much of my life gets on Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr and how much of that any of you read and care about. So I'll do my best to go over what's happened in the past... what, month and a half or so? I don't think I've really posted much since getting back from Cameroon.

( Oh jeez I've been writing this for almost two hours now and it's 1600 words or so, oops )

I am coming to properly realize that self-esteem and body image problems are not affected nearly as much by knowing that people genuinely find me attractive as I wish they were. I wouldn't say I hate myself (especially since my self-esteem issues are almost entirely tied into body image problems and I'm pretty awesome otherwise), but I really need ( Read more... )

I went back to my high school today, and oh my god I miss music. I miss singing in a choir, I miss properly warming up, I miss having to frantically sightsing the tenor part and cursing the composer because FUCK YOU HAVE YOU EVER TRIED TO SING THIS WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO THE TENORS and then being able to do it and just relishing those amazing ( Read more... )

I'm going through a weird period of my life where I'm (preparing to potentially be) cutting large parts of my life up til now out of my life, but I'm also reconnecting with people who were large parts of my life (for example, I'm currently on a bus for a couple hours each direction to have lunch with my first girlfriend). Not really going for a ( Read more... )

I've always been something of a writer, I suppose.( Ramble ramble ramble! )

I miss high school. Or, more specifically, I miss WoburnMusic. :(

I've spent the day listening to recordings of our bands and choirs - recordings with me in them, some of them with me playing solos. I miss playing the saxophone. (Lord, did anyone expect me to ever say that? I know I didn't.) I miss singing, so much. I miss playing the cowbell in ( Read more... )