i hate myself

[bdktty1214]

my pc is still broken :/....yea thats y i havent updated. does any1 ever read my journal anymore? well im really upset right now so im gonna use this entry to complain about life. i cut again. i cut down my wrist and on the top of my wrist and on my stomache. i put a B on my wrist and a D on my stomach. i havent really eaten all day either. I think

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its megan

[raindr0ps0fd00m]

theres no such thing as a "happily ever after" there never has. but there is a thing "holding on ever after" i dont know, just believe in this: i think you are a great person even if you are a little selfish. everyone has their faults we can't all love every bit of ourselves. and i know how you feel about the relationship thing even if im a year younger than you. i am so lonely. but eventually some guy will be smart enough to know how fun you are to be with. :) i hope you feel better amanda
and thanks for listening to another one of my lectures. :-D i feel so lame. but all of it is true.

[_sideshow_freak]

hey amanda, guess what? i've never had a boyfriend. you know how crazy i'm getting.

especially when i like someone so much that doesn't want anyone as a girlfriend.

at least guys actually like you.

[_sideshow_freak]

PS add me it's lauren silly!!!!!!!!!!

[______gunshots]

woooooow, that ironically reminds me of Little dave.

NoOOOOO!

[anonymous]

NO! NO! NO! no cutting NO smokeing drinking is ok i do that to but dude come on i luv u thats good, right?i'm sorry that i'm grounded and cant be there for u damn amanda i asked u not to cut FuCk now i gotta double ShIt man NO!smokeing andything DRUGSSSS ARE BAD com'on man weres the ol'manda that sounds nothing like her ....dont beat the crap outta urself u'll get a bf soon! i know it! its only been a month or two and ¿what happened to dave..? well i'll try to call u alot too dAmN man dont this crap to me! i'm gonna die :*( ShIt
-becka

[deadtotheworldx]

amanda it hasent been that long since you last had a bf man .Its been like a long time for me the lats one i had was around yours but b4 that it was liek a year! so i think i know how it feels to be lonly after so long.And i also know how fucking crazy i get bc of it.I mean likeing someone and never being liked back and shit hurts like a bitch i kno i mean iv been madly in love with the same kid for four years!! and nothing..nothing came from it we are just friends and thats all we will ever be but i still love him...so i knwo how you feel.noooo dont cut i thought you were doing good on it =/ im ok with u drinking and i cant say anything about you smokeing bc god knows what im doing lol but yea..dont hurt yourself over anything...=( i love you!!**hugs** and there is a happily ever after..it just takes a lifetime to find..=/