...and there are days when you find you can do nothing.

It's nights like this when I realize how far from home I'll be.  So many connections are gone, cut by tragedy, time, and apathy.  What I really want right now is a drink; I want to feel the warm kiss of burning sweetness in my throat.  And when I grimace, I'll know that in a moment all the doubts will vanish.  I don't want to think about anything ( Read more... )

I'm terrified right now.  I'm almost paralyzed by fear of what's coming next, and what it means.

The next forty-eight hours are going to be crazy.  And the hours and days and nights after that?  No telling, but I've been told the best stories are often true.

Don't feel like sleeping.  Brain won't shut off.

Someone told me a wonderful story today.

I hope that it'll be true.

Sometimes, even the best of us use other people.  We tell them half-truths or simple lies of omission.  We use them to get what we want, because we are malicious and spiteful.  Other times we act for less sincere reasons.  Rather than having the strength to be honest, we use people because we are lazy, and using them is easier than telling them the ( Read more... )

I'm angry right now.  I turn any emotion I don't like into anger.  It's easy for me to understand.  I can feel it; I can almost make it do things ( Read more... )

I feel like this is where I am supposed to have an epiphany.  I've been running again; I run two, three times a day now.  It feels good; it clears my head.  I haven't slept since I got up Wednesday morning (It's not Friday).  Run, push, eat.  Go through the motions of being social.

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Ran again.  This time I just ( Read more... )

It's good to hear from old friends.

Even if they do wake you up.

How've you been, Gentle Reader?  I hope my return finds you well, and if not then we'll endeavor to remedy that situation ( Read more... )