I want to be allowed one day where I can mope, stew, cry, punch things, scream and yell, and moon over boys. I just feel like thats so petty and not me so I won't allow myself to. At the same time it's all so frustrating and I feel like it would make me feel so much better if I just lost it.

Now, that I think about it, I figured out where it all went to hell. I've discovered myself to be a caring, loving person. I can't seem to love myself, but the people that are in my life right now and seem willing to stick it out, are the most important to me. I feel like I'm starting to notice that I care so much more about people than I did ( Read more... )

I'm writing again! Woo, I've been unblocked!

Thats actually a really big lie, I have no time, but Waverly happened to have a snow day so I'm sitting around watching massive amounts of Law and Order. Instead of drawing up plans for set construction ( Read more... )

This is an excerpt from a...essay? I don't know what exactly it is, but Kerry sent it to me when I was having a hard time dealing with some shit that was going down, admittidly I didn't really see how it fit my situation at the time. I recently got it back in one of those cheesy "your my best friend lets be friends forever" emails and re-reading ( Read more... )

SO its a new year, and I'm seeing it as a bit of a deadline. Well...not exactly, more like a wake up call. SO this year I WILL (underline will) Go to school. I will pay off all of my debts or as much as possible with my tax return. That is all I have to do this year and I wll be the happiest person alive. I'm so excited to go back to school ( Read more... )

Television junkie ( Read more... )

I am in desperate need of a road trip. In an effort to elude myself. After a night of drunken debauchery I couldn't stand being around myself. A road trip wouldn't exactly get me away from myself, but it would displace me a bit,shake things up. No matter where I go I am trapped with my thoughts, and I can't stand them. They're not telling me ( Read more... )

I now have super short, red hair, and have rearranged my bedroom for the fifth time since February. Can we say Cabin Fever?

I really really really need Tigers' game right now. Really bad. I'm quite fucked up right now.