my whole idea of being in love needs to be changed. all the movies i've seen, the songs i've heard, all of it...they're just exaggerations, unhealthy ones. ones that have given me this false idea of what being in love is.

fight

you cant fit a cube piece into a cylinder mold. give me strength. i need You and only You.

there may be a lot of these coming through the night...or at least as long as i stay up...and probably through the next couple days. when i remember something i'll probably put it here.

it feels really nice to know that we're not alone....ever. security and safety is bad, except for in this one case. this is the one dependable security there is.

so much. one thing at a time, though ( Read more... )

-fires small handgun into the air- THEY GOT SADAAM!!!! THEY GOT SADAAM!!!!!!

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side note:

today is a good day. i dont care what is thrown at me. it is a good day. :)

a beautiful sunrise this morning. that brilliance was torn into two by the absence of my mother. i suppose it's not much different that how it's always been, except this time i wake up and she's just gone. no clue where she could be. im comforted by the fact that i at least still care. i have no way of finding her. just have to sit here and wait.

it's times like these when i come to new realizations. times like these that i hurt and grow stronger at the same time. i hope i never make you feel like that again. i hope you never feel like you wish i hadnt fallen in love with you. i realized just now that the qualities that i fell in love with are the ones that persist. the one that hurt me now ( Read more... )

how my lips long for that touch again. the forbidden fruit lay within hands grasp. in plain view, calling to me. i itch to feel it again, i burn to love you once more. oh how i pray for His mighty hands to muffle the screams of the verboten temptation. fill me with Your strength, and steer me to the heavens ( Read more... )

i just want to let you all know that lillettybetter is my best fucking friend and the best thing that has happened to me in recent times (disincluding birth). if you fuck with her in any way, you shall not be happy with the consequences you will have to suffer.