i can't feel you anymore. i just can't feel you.

[barkingharangue]

i wrote this long, verbose post and soon after deleted it, reminding myself it would provide no solace

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[1800savetheday]

i get this. i used to be sort of a hopeless romantic and now i am...cynical...jaded...i don't even know...

Tom Robbins' Still Life With Woodpecker has a running dialog on "how to make love stay" and i used to believe that it was possible and maybe i will again eventually just not today.

[anti_laura]

You ask a lot of questions in this one. The answer to several of them is yes.

I think there are waves of cynicism that come along the way in life, and there's something key in knowing these for what they are and not letting them knock you off your feet. The important thing, I think, is not to let them color your entire outlook, but to see through their lens enough to get a new perspective on everything else when you manage to clear your view.

Though keep in mind I've only been awake for six minutes and may not actually be making sense. Why is my computer on livejournal???

[karamel_baby]

i don't know if this helps, but I still feel the same, crazy, out of control passionate love that I feel for John the first time I saw him five years ago. Nothing has diminished, not even a little bit, and if anything, I love him more and I'm crazier about him each day. There has never been a moment of boredom. Everything about him still excites me, and I can still get nervous around him. It's silly, I guess.

Maybe youre just in a funk.love you sister, lets make mac n cheese.

[whatistoday]

I don't talk enough.

[listost]

i know what i want to say about this but i cannot express it very well currently. it's sad though, i've been feeling this was lately