Slight setback; confessions; and good news

[bapgacktgrrl]

Mom had a TIA on Friday morning, so yesterday was a bad day for everyone.(Personally I think the hyper aunt didn't help matters by coming or staying at the hospital for three days.) I finally lost it after a month and a half, and broke down in hysterics for about an hour and a half yesterday afternoon. I was a mess for a while, I am not gonna lie.

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[sunhawk]

*big hugs!!* We all need a good cry now and then, especially with something that stressful! Hopefully your family will remember after this that you too need some TLC! *more hugs*

[bapgacktgrrl]

I do hope so. It just happens that the women are called upon to be 'stronger' than anyone else in the family, and that burden wears me out.

It's funny- my Mom's sister just younger than her knew when I was small that I felt things differently than the other kids, that I was more sensitive to changes and reactions in people than most. It's funny how only she and Mom could spot that when I wasn't more than 6.

[heartofdavid]

Everyone has their limits, you're no different and if you need help, seek it - that's not a failing or limitation - you're only human. *hugs*

Cool about the tickets! I got the HIM biography - not bad - LOTS of nice pics! ;)

[bapgacktgrrl]

Now I want this bio. I want pretty Ville pictures! *sigh* I had a dream about him last night....I was working for him in a shop! LOL But at least he touched my face and that was a nice thing. :)

And thank you. Thank you so much. I know I am not failing her- even one of her doctors said to my Dad yesterday how wonderful it was that every time he came to her room someone from the family was there in the room with her, and that we were sadly the exception than the rule. That made me sad for the other paitents who didn't have anyone. At least Mom has us.

Today's a better day. I have to keep looking forward. But I think I'll slowly start to feel better.

[sphinx_99]

I'm sorry your Mom has had another set-back. I've been following what you've written, and if you ever have any question about what they are telling you medical-wise, please don't hesitate to ask. Also, don't feel even a bit bad for breaking down-this happens. And if you need to see a psychologist or take a medication for a short while? Then that is ok too. You need to take care of yourself first, otherwise you can never be there for your mom!

Isn't music awesome? It really can be wonderful, how it can make you so happy......get you through rough times, give you something to look forward to.....I'm glad you got your tickets.....good seats? **4 inch platforms?** you go, girl!!!!

[bapgacktgrrl]

Thank you, thank you. I appreciate that help. It's been an up and down time the last 7 days. It's funny, because she reacts well to almost everyone on the staff except for this one nurse, she barely looks at or talks to her. She'll speak clear words and phrases to me or my Dad or most of the other med staff.

I know it's hard for me to admit that I needed help coping- this is something I have battled for a long time and I just couldn't break through on my own. It's been too hard. You know, brick wall and all. It's been like that. Even the chaplan said that if it helps, it's not a bad thing to ask for help in that way.

Well, the show is general admission, but I think I'll be getting there early because I want to be up close to the stage. I want him to sweat on me. *naughty smile*