today has been surreal.

kanye west is a champion. i'm addicted to his record. better late than never. 'Jesus Walks' made me cry this afternoon ( Read more... )

I have lost 31% of my excess body weight.

I have seen pie charts, line graphs, and digital representations of my weight loss over the past three months.

I want a grilled cheese sandwich.

"The last thing a rapper needs when he's out promoting a new album is to be accused of failing to keep it real. So Eminem took to MTV's TRL..."

way to keep it real Em.

so i went to the hospital again.
whatever.

i blacked out today.
whatever.

i'm a wreck.
whatever.

Shockingly, I really am okay.  As bad as it seems from the outside, i've done my best to accept it. i have no other choice really.  so i don't wine. at least i try not to whine.  i hate whining.

Lately I've found  the fact that I barely really laugh is ( Read more... )

Dr. Fisher ( Read more... )

*i read about you in Billboard the other day ( Read more... )

life is going well ( Read more... )

i am sitting here listening to my neighbors practicing their drum and their bass. my pictures are rattling on the walls, and i am yawning. i'm thinking about megan woo and how much i love her and miss her. i'm thinking about how crazy life is, and how somehow things align in just the right way, and you make amazing friends, and life somehow ( Read more... )

so it looks like i yet again have a complication.
let's see if i can go for some kind of world record.

this surgery has been way harder than i ever thought it would be, and i now know that it wasn't just my naive mind thinking that it should be easier.  it should.

i'm some kind of freak of nature that just can't get a grip.

even my doctor is ( Read more... )