Comments | bampete: I don't know what to do with myself

bampete

I don't know what to do with myself

Apr 09, 2008 16:23

I'm so weak. Seriously. Five minutes ago I broke and started crying. Guess what caused it?
Those of you who guessed "your mother" were absolutely right.
I come home about an hour ago from Gothenburg (school and interviewing a police officer) and mom was here. She'd said earlier that the reason she couldn't come to us and celebrate yesterday was ( Read more... )

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aw_haw April 9 2008, 15:46:33 UTC

*squishes*

bampete April 9 2008, 15:54:37 UTC

thanks.

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bampete April 9 2008, 17:32:30 UTC

I know. Dad said afterwards "You'll mother will never love you, just realize it". heh. worse.
I'm gonna try to escape her.

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bampete April 9 2008, 18:21:33 UTC

She's not my mom anymore, really. She's just this constant weight on my shoulders that keeps breaking me. I feel like she died when I was 8-12 years old, cause that's when she changed, before that she was normal. I don't remember normal moments with her anymore.

I'm planning on never seeing her again as soon as I can get far far away from her. She's already threatened me to kill herself because of me, to make me feel bad for hating her... Eh.
I just feel better when I'm away from her, and I don't really know what to do...

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deathonstairs April 9 2008, 17:53:17 UTC

*cuddles*

bampete April 9 2008, 18:22:12 UTC

Thanks =)

whoa4u April 9 2008, 22:12:22 UTC

Aww, Caroline. :( I'm sorry about your mom, love.

*cuddles you*

I hope you're feeling a bit better now.

bampete April 9 2008, 22:18:12 UTC

Aww, thanks.

*cuddles back*

I am feeling better, hung out with my mate Amanda this eveing so I'm no longer miserable. Or as miserable as earlier.

anxiousxpleas April 10 2008, 04:46:59 UTC

No! *snuggle* don't cry, lovey. <3

:( that's sounds so miserable, I wish I could make it better for you.

I don't really know anything about your personal life, aside from this little bit you're revealing ... but your mom sounds like she doesn't quite get you, not that her intentions are exactly in the wrong place.

Bah. that can't have been a very positive thing to say.

Maybe you should move away from home? When do you go into university? Er, I'm not exactly sure how the Swedish school system goes. If you live with your mom, (which I kind of got the idea that maybe you didn't?) it might be for the best to start out on your own, and just like.. get away and stuff.

Come to nyc with me! That's where I'm escaping to this fall! xD

bampete April 10 2008, 05:20:59 UTC

Awww, I'm better today.

Errr, well I can go to university in about a little over a year. The swedish school system is confusing. I don't live with my mom, haven't in the nearest 3 years (I think)... But I have to see her because if else Viking won't go there, and then I get shit for that cause I must be the one who made Viking not want to go, according to my mom.

Oh, NYC. Cool! I wanna go.