I'm on the edge again

[bampete]

I don't get how I got so fragile. I hate it.
Anyways, I cried myself to sleep tonight, cried today whilst watching telly (like crocodile-tears)....
I'm trying my best.
I called the psychologist, but came to an answering machine. I hope I get an appointment soon, if else I'm jumping off a bridge, probably.
I am done with dealing.
Mom is being awful again

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[shes__henry]

my lovely! it truly saddens me to read this. but please... be strong. i can't say it enough: be strong, because you can and you're able to get through this.

call your shrink-lady again and talk to her. call emma. put "don't be shy" on and dance like a madwoman. go outside and take pictures. study for school (i do think it's a good idea, going to school. from my own experience, staying at home only make it worse...). keep yourself occupied.

i want to send you a little care package, old snail mail style. what do you say, babe? :D

[bampete]

Thank you. I'm trying my best to stay strong.
However I am kinda sick at the same time so that just makes me even more weak, I can't help it.

I called the shrink-lady yesterday, but she didn't answer, then she called me today when I was in the wrong company so I couldn't answer. I think I'm gonna call her again tomorrow to get an appointment, cause I think I really need it.
I should call Emma, yes. I just don't know what to say... And dancing around like a madwoman sounds like fun, I think I'll try that if I'm staying home from school tomorrow again. :)
Thanks for the tips, really. I appreciate your support, and it cheers me up for the moment.

Well, I'd would love that.

My address is:
Caroline Grönlund
Förbindelsevägen 29
429 30 Kullavik
Sweden

[bampete]

By the way. I have to mention that I'm so truly amazed by your job as a soldier!
I'm sorry we haven't spoken in so long.
But I'm proud that you've had a dream come true :D

[lelaine_barclay]

crocodile tears?