I feel so fucking lost right now. I think I need help.
I mean it. I feel just so... disconnected from everything.
The entry for the meme I made yesterday... I don't remember making it. I don't remember ANYTHING from yesterday. One second, I was down in the basement laying on my bed with Eileen (read: vandigo), facing the wall (this is on SATURDAY night, mind you).... and the next minute, I'm facing her ( Read more... )
The entry for the meme I made yesterday... I don't remember making it. I don't remember ANYTHING from yesterday. One second, I was down in the basement laying on my bed with Eileen (read: vandigo), facing the wall (this is on SATURDAY night, mind you).... and the next minute, I'm facing her ( Read more... )
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I have some info on cheap counselors if you want... and I know a place to go to see a psychiatrist... you can apply for CICP (colorado indigent care program) and get some type of health coverage for this (that's what I'm doing)
Also, if you are diagnosed with something that prevents you from finding work, you could also apply for disability due to a mental condition - I know a couple of people personally that have done that successfully.
You will get through this - you have friends... people who love you... and you can always lean on us.
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We were looking into North Range Behavioral Health since they're in Greeley and serve the county we live in, anyway. But I can talk it over with Vandy and see what she says.
The problem is that I don't WANT disability. I want to work and have the satisfaction that I'm not completely useless.
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Oooh - good luck with NRBH - don't know a lot about them.
And I understand about not wanting to go on disability, and with all the treatment options out there, you probably won't have to... but I wanted to put it out there anyway. :)
And you wouldn't be useless if you couldn't work... depending on the situation, a part time job wouldn't be as difficult to maintain, and you could always find volunteer work or something... :-D
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I can't imagine what you're going through, not really. A little, if I try really hard, but not completely.
And I know what it's like to be scared to go find out that there is something wrong with you. Even if it's just little things. But. Sometimes you just have to tell yourself to shut up and go see someone who can help you. and Sherri I love you to death and I want you to be happy and healthy. No more running, No more hiding. No more pretending everything is okay. I want you to really be able to say "i'm okay" and mean it. I want you to be happy and free and unafraid.
Sometimes I think that's too much to ask of anyone, that they can be those things.
Still, I want it for you. Do your best, hun.
I know I don't comment a lot...but I do read everything. Well, not meme's usually. but everything else.
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