My Grandfather's funeral will be held tomorrow, May 2nd, 2020. It will be live-streamed from Saint Pius in Tucson, Arizona, with only 10 people attending. It may be 10 members of my family plus clergy, I'm not certain. I feel really disconnected from reality right now. I feel so unable to understand why we are so isolated. I know it's because of ( Read more... )

Of the many moments threading the needle of my musical tapestry I can think of one single thing surging tirelessly in the background, painstakingly taking every stitch. My family's piano. An Acrosonic by Baldwin my mom found (if she was reading this she'd probably be thinking I was going to say her- however she was tirelessly surging in the ( Read more... )

college is about to be over ( Read more... )

college starts tomorrow ( Read more... )

last night I was overcome by a waterfall of emotions and memories from when I was younger. I was finally able to accept the fact that the past actually happened. the things I used to care about, the people I was with and who's still with me, the things I believed. some things do change, but some things always stay the same. I'm holding steady. I'm ( Read more... )

look.

it's alright if you wanna die sometimes, i'll tell you you aren't alone. i'll tell you life and death are two paths travelling parallel to each other, and that they just cross in another dimension. i'll tell you plenty of things, but it won't matter. none of it matters if none of you listen. more empathy, less sympathy.

October 7th, 2006. it all comes back to me.

man. times almost up, you know. the summer? no big deal. reflecting now, it's no different, same as everyday I wake up and think back on yesterday. thinking who the fuck was I and who will I be today; today being a general term. hell, it's been the same day since I was born. I've come along way today, and the suns still far from setting. Thank you ( Read more... )

tomorrow is 06-06-06. my mother thinks I might be the devil. tell me somethin' nice.

sweet mexico, save my weary soul.