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Deleted Scenes from the Big_Fang

Sep 21, 2011 17:18

Title: Deleted Scenes from the Big_Fang
Author: badboy_fangirl
Pairing(s): Damon/Elena
Word Count: ~1000
Rating/Warnings: PG-13
Summary: Four moments from canon from Damon's POV.
Author's notes: When I started this story so many months ago, I had this idea of doing all these "important" moments in Damon and Elena's relationship for the opening chapter-which is ( Read more... )

tvd, big_bang_fang, fanfic, damon/elena, saved by grace

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linsell_farm September 22 2011, 11:14:23 UTC

Thanks for the not-preview, bb

I love hearing your Damon & Elena voices. They always ring true with me.

I'll have no trouble at all investing the time to read your Big_Fang when it comes out :)

brokenbell September 22 2011, 13:08:14 UTC

If possible, I'm even more excited to read your big_fang now!

Part 1 distant_autumn October 19 2011, 11:31:48 UTC

Okay, this is how behind I am on everything, that I am only now getting chance to read this. Give it a couple more months and I might finally, finally get caught up on everything. Anyway, I know I'm ridiculously late in commenting (so late that I've now got several more of your lovely fics waiting to be read, just as soon as RL stops being so crazy and I am able to), but I've still gotta say how much I loved these deleted scenes and ramble at you a bit! :D

I love how fractured the first one is, as he tries to grasp what has happened and fades in and out of awareness, eventually tethered only by Elena. I love the initial sense of claustrophobia inside the tomb as the truth crashes in on him, and how disorientated he becomes once he stumbles out of it. (I kinda feel like that feels true of Katherine and Elena's effect on his life in general. You know, Katherine drawing him into the dark but forever out of reach while he destroys himself for her, while Elena is like the fresh air, making him feel again, and that is disorientating ( ... )

Part 2 distant_autumn October 19 2011, 11:45:16 UTC

It's such a great language choice on your part, because it's like he's using that descriptor as one more way to make it easier to deny wanting the comfort she could've offered. Because after all, who does want to be pitied? Few of us, and certainly not someone like Damon.

He shouldn't be surprised that she's still at the Boarding House when he gets back, but he is.

I love this contrasted with the previous section. That she does try and stay with him here and that in a lot of ways, it really was a lot easier for him back in 1.20, when she didn't. Then, he could deny what he was feeling a lot more easily; here, he can't control what he is feeling at all.

and makes him feel reduced to a needy, damaged piece of shit in the process.

Oh, Damon. That somebody actually caring for him makes him feel worse instead of better. SIGH.

he just keeps telling her to leave, in as many ways as he can. Lovely way of putting it, because that's exactly what he did or tried to do, and yet each action just made it more and more evident how upset ( ... )

Re: Part 2 badboy_fangirl October 19 2011, 21:20:43 UTC

Oh, Damon. That somebody actually caring for him makes him feel worse instead of better. SIGH.
So broken, I know.

She's the humanity he can't bury, no matter how hard he tries.
Now I'm just quoting back to you, because this line makes me want to WEEP!

I like how almost animalistic that seems, like one more rejection of him being in any way capable of embracing his humanity, one more way of reminding himself that he's a vampire, that he's not human and never can be again. Like it's that idea, that part of himself that he's trying to bury, not just Rose.
I do think the image of him digging Jessica's grave with his bare hands is complete head-canon for me, so visceral and haunting, and yet here you give it even greater meaning. He's burying himself, yet again. GAH!

Thank you, as always for commenting!

Re: Part 1 badboy_fangirl October 19 2011, 21:13:35 UTC

I adore your comments, as I've mentioned before, and more than anything (selfishly) I want you to read this story and like it and give me all your thoughts about it, but at the same time I worry for you -- your feedback is a dream, but it's also got to be so time consuming!

I mean, these were the throw away parts! I can only imagine your thought processes when it comes to what actually happens in the story!

TWINGES. Oh, Damon. You are already in love, boo.
I also love how you talk to the characters and call them your boo. You're adorable.

Also adored the contrast between Stefan remaining silent and refusing to communicate with Elena, and Damon being unable to help opening up
In some ways this is the epitome of the triangle, is it not? I mean, for serious. Who has the healthy relationship here?

I loved the phrasing of "he's actually grateful". He's so instantly on the defensive, even inside his own head, to protect himself from feeling the sense of rejection.This was really important to me, to understand why he wouldn't let it ( ... )

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