when you don't know what to do.

Have you ever felt like your life has completely been turned around on purpose just to see how you react?
I feel like that every fucking day. 

my moms in the hospital.
she gets out tomorrow afternoon.
thanks to anyone who said they loved me and my mom. keep us in your prayers, it means a lot to me.
we'll get through this, my only wish would be to see ronnie for christmas.

i don't know what to feel anymore, let alone write.
So for now, this site is useless to me.
And as an aspiring writer, i am useless to me right now.

Splinters buried to the bone. Headaches like aneurysms - One can only hope. Nightmares ever harder to control. Always in the back of my mind. Never letting go. No, I can't explain this to you because it's different for everyone but I feel like I'm drowning face down in the bathtub. Too weak to pick my head up. This is the voice of nothing. Nothing ( Read more... )

getting internet threats from piece of shit ex boyfriends.
RUIN MY LIFE, I FUCKING DARE YOU. YOU FUCKING SCUMBAG.

the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

i can't physically do this on my own.
i've realized that i have to and it hurts more than i'll admit to anyone.
holding everything in has become the only thing that's familiar anymore.

I know that they say things always get worse before they get better, I would just like to know who "they" are ( Read more... )

wtf @ my life right now ( Read more... )

Yesterday and today were both really awkward days.
Overanalyzation is something that i've completely mastered at the age of 23, almost 24 now. eeek. how stressful.
I love living with brice and ashney & now ashley lives here, which is awesome.
I hate/love this part of the year. I hate the holidays, I'll keep the weather though.

I wish my family and i ( Read more... )

Went pretty well.
Hung out with Blaine, Brice, Justin, Paul, and Lindsay.

I LOVE COLD WEATHER. ITS THE BEST. except when you have no one to cuddle with.
Today ultimately sucked, but the friends I surround myself with have been turning out to be very rewarding.