okay, most of my entries are gone because their friends only or some shit. and i really have no clue what i`m doing. so now i`ve changed my mind and i need a code for a new journal. anyone have any offerings. it`d help greatly <3

some bitch just called me ugly. she`s probably right. ;/ :cries:

woo! i was reading dear jessica`s journal = twiixx. and she is typically correct about guys being only sexually useful. but that`s only in most cases ;D and she called me insightful.. dude man, i feel too consoled ( Read more... )

so i had a pretty straight anniversary. i want to just.. live at his house. maybe i`ll get to go back to Alan`s. yeuh. so all we did was "lolly around" in bed together and caress one another. then we left and went to the mall to get out gifts. and we went into mae wok`s and ate and "lishl al" was telling this family that he eats there twice a day ( Read more... )

woo ! mylanta. i`m just about bored. tomorrow`s the biiiiiig ONE full year anniversary!! oh, i just can`t wait. oh the possibilities of what`s going to happen. see what i anticipate is that i won`t have the same problems i do daily as tomorrow. but i am indeed feeling a tad apprehensive. but it`ll be straight. i know this ;D ( Read more... )

the storm inside of me isn`t fully over. i`m still feeling melancholy. and where are my friends? they just left and haven`t arrived back.. nothing to do. well, while i was insanely bored this morning, i looked for an art school to go to. yesterday mrs. crouch told me about the Nossi College of Art. it`s in nashville. and that`s probably where i`ll ( Read more... )

there are days when i wish i could figure out things on my own, like why some days i can take shit from someone and others i can`t control my emotions.. and i just break down and cry. in front of the one i love ;/ i`m accepting the fact into my life that i`m a fuck up. i don`t have manners overall. or maybe i do, i just chose to not ever put them ( Read more... )

i just got off the phone with Alan`s ma. she`s always a good inspiration, a good shoulder to cry on ;/ i talked with her for 2 hours. i never even talked to my other boyfriends parents.. even carried on a 2minute conversation. it just wasn`t important like it is with Alan. it wasn`t as intimate i don`t suppose. but well, i understand so many things ( Read more... )

PRAiSE THE LORD!! for someone like jessica. at least she understands where i`m coming from about everyone`s problem with carrying on about their "fascinating" clothes. i am tellin you. people be actin a damn fool. anyway, i can see how fuckin happy some of you are for me when i`m happy. really, it just warms my heart. oh good God. so beyond all ( Read more... )

no one can fucking imagine how remarkably HAPPY&CONTENT i finally have become<3333!!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D my mom said that my whole little plan with me and alan`s anniversary.. is just perfect!! goodness me.. i am just too happy. i actually thought she was going to give me the regular bullshit. youuu know.. how parents delay and all that. now Alan is ( Read more... )