still here.

[babycatcher33]

I had to stop taking one of my happy pills because when I went back to the doctor for a refill, he told me that it was a category C drug and was really shocked that I was still breastfeeding while taking W *and* C.  It's been about a week since I quit taking it and I can't believe how anxious, panicked, teary, and hopeless I feel even though I'm

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[becoming_rachel]

((hugs))
I totally relate about the sinus problems. I used to get wicked chronic sinus infections. They sent me for CT scans, X-Ray, Ear, Nose, and Throat, and couldn't find any "conclusive" cause or treatment, so I was basically stuck with them. Thankfully, they have (knock wood) for the most part cleared and are few and far between. I'm convinced the biggest culprit was stress, as at the time I was working, attending school and a practicum, which I'm sure you can relate to. And I didn't have children, so I can only imagine how rough this is for you!! ((hugs)).
As for the tech, ugh. She really should keep her opinions to herself. You probably know this better than I do from your studies, but in many cultures (First Nations, for example. I'm Metis myself.) nursing children until they are three or even older is quite common. It's just our society that seems to judge when children get weaned as "normal" or "abnormal".
I hope you feel better soon, lots of positive thoughts and prayers going your way. You're a truly admirable woman.

[birthingway]

FWIW I also used to have chronic sinus infections, and managed to get rid of them using acupuncture, of all things. I was skeptical, but so sick of being on abx that I was willing to try anything.

[birthingway]

1. That doctor is an idiot and an insensitive jerk. Do you have a copy of Hale (I thought I gave you one)? If not, LMK and I'll scan pages for you. Here is a link in the meantime: http://66.230.33.248/discus/messages/43/85832.html?1194448521 (if I am wrong and it's cymbalta, not celexa, there is stuff about that in the forums, too).

2. I LOLed at your reaction to the CAT scan tech. What a fucking asshole thing to say. WTF is WRONG with people? My god, the rudeness just boggles me! I am tempted to write a letter.

3. Sweetie, you are SO close. Please please do not give up. I can feel your frustration and I see that you are shutting down. Please just hang in there. God is going to open a window, somewhere. I am praying and hoping, for both of us.

[babycatcher33]

Thank you D, you got me all teary. I do feel like I'm shutting down and giving up. I'm having such a hard time holding on to this dream, as if someone is standing on the ledge above me, stomping on my fingers while I try to hold on.

[birthingway]

You are going to have bionic fingers by the time this is complete!

[babycatcher33]

lol - I'll need them.

[skybabie]

Sending Prayers, don't give up my dear, you've come to far, way way way to far and know so much more than most people out there know about babies I only know how blessed other Mom's will be to learn everything from you as you catch the little ones... (Sorry if this makes no sense, 2 hours of sleep the past 3 nights is getting on me *g* Mom duty you understand) Just don't give up.

[ourlittlemonkey]

Oh Janice, I'm seriously going to zone all my positive thoughts towards one of the midwives to connect with you... I'd HATE to see you give up on your dream and settle into unfulfilling work for the next many years. You'd make it work and I'm sure you'd still really enjoy your life, but it just isn't the vision for you.

[lululily]

This is all so unfair, but please don't give up. I wish there was something I could do to help. Sending what love and strength I can.

Pooh to the tech. Really people. I wonder what she'd say if I told her I was still nursing my almost-4-year-old. Oh wait. I know what she'd say.

I hope you feel better soon. I hope you get some good news soon. Lots of love.