Tonight is friday, my night off work, and I have nothing to do. Fun! I called some people but their phones were off, they had to work, or just didnt answer. O well. I did it to myself by cutting off socially after ninth grade, so i guess i have no reason to bitch bc im the one who didnt meet anyone ( Read more... )

  So I have noticed I have been isolating myself a lot latly, and with josh i have been pushin him away.  I dont kno why i havnt really been talkin to anyone latly, but i dont want to, id rather sleep.  I kno i need to get on a better schedual, and i am.  I worked today 5 hours, with the bitchy manager. ugh!  O well, got paid, i worked yesterday ( Read more... )

Today went much better than yesterday. I should have a car and license within 2 weeks! yay! SO i have to work for the next 3 days. ugh, o well at least it will be an ok paycheck. I think i am going to put in my 2 weeks notice soon, or cut my days, only work nights as a driver (they make good tips), so i can get a day job. I will start school ( Read more... )

For the past week my mom has been talkin about her getting me a car, or helpn me out. Today i tell her about some ive seen and she tells me i have to cash in some money and buy it myself bc she doesnt "have the money", which pissed me off so then i said, then u shouldnt have spent $500 at Macy last week. It makes me so angry bc shes out a lot, ( Read more... )

Tired as shit again...i worked last night till 11:30pm. I had to do all the dishes bc i was late, which took me an hour, and in a 3 sink thing, it took forever and i was soaked. So i was pissed when i got off work, but whatever ( Read more... )

I got up after Josh called this morning, i felt i needed some fresh air and took a walk around the neighborhood. Im glad i did, i think i was beginning to foget how glad i am to be alive. Ive been in such a bad mood lately that everything seems so gray and unhappy to me. I just walked, listened to the birds, and looked at the 1/4 moon and 2 ( Read more... )

GOD EVERY AND EVERYTHIN THAT EVER MATTERS TO ME ALWAYS GETS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME, NO MATTER HOW BIG OR SMALL. FUCK EVERYONE....GOODNIGHT

So i went to work today and that was boring as shit, my sinus infection is killin me still, i cant wait till im better ( Read more... )

Just got off the phone with josh after a 3 hour talk. I like that he has a phone now and we can talk, makes it easier. He sang me my song to help me try to get sleep bc i am so sick. Didnt work obviously. lol ( Read more... )

So nothin much so far today. Tonight im supposed to go play pool, which will be fun. So far today i sat around talked on the phone, and now am gradin papers, cleanin my room, shower, and then leaving.
So much fun. i need to work. Ima go apply to some places tomorrow. Byeee
Nat