now i wonder..
if i could ever love anything in my heart.

i think..
i took three showers today
just let the water drip over me
but no matter how many showers i take
i can never be clean
your still inside
and sometimes..
i think im really sick in the head

my parents worry about me
but soothing words come too late
the damage is done

i hate when you say its okay
and then you smile
and walk away

even though the tears have dried..
there is always room in my heart to cry for you

i wish i put my pjs in the wash before leaving the house =[

-why does it have to be so all or nothing?
-because its the right thing to do.

i know that its time to say 'the end'
but deep deep down in my heart
i know that i dont want to
and i still sleep with the night light on
so when you come back home
you can still find your way to me.

i did something really good today
i put a towel over the clock in my room
i went to my computer and stereo
and put post its over the time
i can live easier now
why didnt i do this earlier?

what is it about snowglobes
that gives them their romantic ideal?
is it the crystal clear glass
that protects forever inside
or is it the white snowflakes
held in timeless swirls
i think that one day
i'd like to hold my love in a snowglobe
so that way it would be forever