Ronnie made his way to the top of the staircase from his hotel room on the other side of the building. I watched him through a cracked room 22 door. He paused at the staircase, looked at room 22 and sighed before he limped down the staircase ( Read more... )

Bobby was waiting at his window, looking out on Broadway and shouting at me. I couldn't make out what he was saying because of all the traffic and sirens and staccato. I pushed the glass door past the lock and ran up the stairs. Bobby was waiting in his room with a sink, the room with a sink next to my room with a sink. Bobby lives in door 20 and I ( Read more... )

I'm watching my cat take a shit while listening a sad song. Lately I've felt like maybe being sober isn't for me. My days no longer seem like accomplishments and I take these days for granted, I guess. I have 663 days without alcohol or other drugs and lately I've been considering getting loaded ( Read more... )

Jaddi, the cat was pissing blood the other day-so I brought him to the vet and they did a UA and gave him cat heroin. When she told me how he was going to behave after I administer, I told her that I am very well aware of how he'll behave when he's high. She responded: "This stuff doesn't work on humans ( Read more... )

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I sat in the hot tub at the local gym and watched geriatric women exercise in the pool across from me. I thought about all the feelings I assumed came with being old. The woman closest to the entrance of the Olympic sized swimming pool and closest to the hot tub was breathing heavily and hardly following the exercises being shouted by a lady ( Read more... )

I got a cup of coffee at the gas station. There was a new cashier there. I am used to seeing the same guy every morning. He's about six foot three and he boxes. He's always happy to see me. I'm not sure if he is happy to see me because that's what his job entails or if he is really happy to see me ( Read more... )

Louie from work didn’t feel like spending money at the baseball game. He asked if I wanted to go later in the week, but I’ll be working the next six nights. Every day John and I look at seals, the bridge, and Alcatraz. I have three cigarettes and he has a pint of vodka. He hates San Francisco. I reminded him that people dream about visiting a place ( Read more... )

working at a grocery store in north beach. i haven't felt this wholesome in a long time.