in a way, lately i've kind of been missing those days/nights during my senior year of high school when i'd be in my bed, awake at 5 a.m. (knowing i had to be on my way to class in a couple of hours) - i'd lay on my back with my headphones on listening to bedhead's "lepidoptera" or "rest of the day" on repeat. most nights alternating between the ( Read more... )

you know, i think i am setting myself up for a world of hurt here. so why have i been ignoring it? why do i still want to? the walls which usually construct themselves within moments of the fear just aren't doing their job this time. & i think i never really understood the true meaning of mixed signals before. what do you want from me? what do ( Read more... )

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arrive in austin at 1:25 p.m. on friday, march 10 ( Read more... )

i'm happy. honest to goodness fucking happy. JEN: i'll be in austin for spring break/sxsw (for sure this time, tickets are booked) - will you be around?

( 2005 )

here it is. finally, the thing i closed my eyes & willingly drifted through the summer only in hopes for & anticipation of: this winter's first snow.
something about this time though -- it's different. like it lost something. or i lost something. maybe it's just this night. or this spot i am in ( Read more... )

i love you truly or i love no one.

disappointment,

why must you always be at my heels? is it because i sometimes allow you to creep in my footsteps & you've decided to make your place as my shadow a permanent home? because my attempts to rid my expectation of your presence never cease to fail.

unwillingly yours,
carrie.

i fell in love with so much music this year (especially these past couple months. holy crap, overload). hence my need to make this list of my fifteen most favorite albums. they are in no particular order because that's just too hard (with the exception of #1. some days, i have to FORCE myself to listen to something else ( Read more... )