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1 . What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
kept the same job all year without even getting close to being fired.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't make resolutions, really. there were things i thought about just prior to midnight's passing -- not wishes or resolutions, just things i hoped for, mostly. tomorrow night i plan to do the same.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes.
5. What countries did you visit?
does texas count?
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
less bullshit, more straight from the heart. self-confidence.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
(a) the day my pop-pop died & the week that followed which i spent in texas with my mom. that doesn't need an explanation.
(b) thanksgiving. it was the first holiday i've ever spent without my family. if you know me & how close i am with my family, you'll understand that being able to get past that made me feel something i cannot explain. & that same night i kicked a huge negative force out of my life. literally told him to get out. when i did that, i felt stronger than i have in a very long time. it was also the night i met someone who, whether he realizes it or not, has been changing my perspective on a lot of things.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
again, the job. also didn't take other people's shit nearly as often as i used to. tamed my sensitivity a little. did well in school.
9. What was your biggest failure?
not realizing how out of control i was until i'd wasted half the year away with drugs & people who don't matter.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
if you know me at all, or have spent at least a couple hours in my presence, you'll laugh at the injury part.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
gosh. on a purely superficial level, maybe my fawn necklace or bird earrings. simple things that make me feel good. perhaps it was the things i didn't buy that were the best.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
funny thing here is that the person in my life whose behavior merited the most celebration is the person who treated me the worst. i celebrate it because he was a catalyst for change.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
more people than i care to divulge. most importantly, my own.
14. Where did most of your money go?
at the beginning of the year, drugs. then i said fuck that shit & returned to spending the majority of it on records, art supplies, books, cigarettes, alcohol, food, & shows.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
wilco show. m. ward show in denton. my morning jacket show in dallas. going back to school. seeing certain people. most recently, getting my life back.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
oh boy. "don't think twice, it's all right" & "up to me" by bob dylan, "goddess of drought" by destroyer, "i feel like the mother of the world" by smog, "fake palindromes" by andrew bird, "what we have known" by joanna newsom, "catform" by rogue wave, anything by wilco or my morning jacket.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? right now, i am a completely different kind of happier. i can't even begin to make that make sense for you.
II. thinner or fatter? i don't know.
III. richer or poorer? richer, definitely.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
finishing one thing before starting the next. i also could've used a little more common sense.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
time wasting.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent it with my family & some old friends & one new friend. my christmas day lasted until six p.m. the next evening. given the chance, i wouldn't change a single moment of it.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
i fell in love with a lot of things.
23. How many one-night stands?
no comment.
24. What was your favourite TV program?
six feet under.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i make it a point not to hate. i learned some things i didn't want to know & i stopped accepting negativity from a few people, yes. there are several people i would've spoken highly of a year ago but now burn a little inside when i see or think of them. this is out of hurt, not hate.
26. What was the best book you read?
the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
yikes. honestly, i hit the jackpot this year. maybe rogue wave or tapes 'n tapes or devotchka or bosque brown or that old-ish destroyer album.
28. What did you want and get?
i can't talk about this one yet.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
tarnation. me & you & everyone we know. a very long engagement.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
honestly? i was lonelier this year than i've ever been before. & that is saying a fucking lot. so i'd have to say something along those lines.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
i don't do those.
34. What kept you sane?
music. art. sebastian the cat. alcohol.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
anderson cooper (shut up), andrew bird, & bill callahan.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
fuck. where do i begin?
37. Who did you miss?
everybody.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
chris o., bo, miranda, meredith.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
listen to the part of you that tries to warn you when something or someone is bad. & if that part of you tries to tell you something is good, don't destroy it.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"oh do i feel/like the mother of the world/with two children/fighting."