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[aurorabell]

i thought i was broken
my heart earthquaking along irregular beats
i thought you were a bookmark
a reminder of where i left off
a misplaced love from long ago
that night I drove through the mountains like a maniac
erasing the chalk scribbles you scratched into my forgetting

I was so good at ignoring you

only to discover
i've kept you tucked into the

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[cynthia_french]

really hit a chord with me. i've felt like this every since he left. it's been 5 years.

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[aurorabell]

It occurred to me recently that it's been almost 6 years. 6 years since i went on anything more serious than a first date and i haven't let anyone in in all that time. it has been a long time since i've felt anything besides numb.

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[cynthia_french]

ditto.

and i'm still not ready to.

and that disturbs me.

I'm not getting any younger right. How long until it's too long? Until I'm too far gone? Until I'm too old for things I thought I wanted once.

*shrugs*

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[aurorabell]

Exactly.

that's the thing. on one hand it disturbs me and on the other i don't know if i'll ever have it in me to take the leap again and i don't know that i care.

[kzooslam]

Very good.
One suggestion- consider changing pronouns (YOU's) to third person.

[aurorabell]

Yeah agreed. I noticed it sounded clunky when I read through it the next day. Love you!!!