My great aunt Lucille passed away last week. She was the last sibling left of my grandmother that died a few years ago. When Lucille passed, it made me realize that the last piece of my Grammy is gone...she was like a living piece of her that I could talk to and see images of my Grammy, the greatest woman to ever live. It also made me realize ( Read more... )

In the most basic terms, I feel sad and confused. I do not enjoy this state of being. I feel as if I have gone back in time...on year... I'm still sitting on my couch crying... And drinking a sweet tea.

Slowly letting him go... The images in my mind of the times we shared are beginning to fade... Except for a few moments that are burned in there like the trance you get from a campfire flame...

I have to let go...in order to be sane.

I truly loved him. I am glad that it is possible.

i am giving up...
goodnight, tonight, goodbye.

You are a thunderous thing, wonderous king
The face of rival-less gods, deep in your thoughts
Come here,oh, closer to touch, never enough
Let me climb under your skin, oh, let me in

I want to go see Dear John and cry a lot...

I'm holding on to something that never was... I cannot make myself let go.

It is so hard to love someone so much...especially when they do not love you in return.

Happy Thanksgiving.

I have made so many wrong decisions lately. But, it is too late.
It is time to start over.
"And I still miss someone."