It's been a tough time, but also a time with a lot of really good change.

I finally told J I wanted out of the relationship. I was pretending in the relationship for a long time because I didn't want to get kicked out, or kept away from my dog, or lose my job (he owns the business I was working for). He found a diary I kept. He read it. He knew what ( Read more... )

I am back in my old home, living with my ex, not happy about it. Why did I agree to this? To work for free? When I get back home, I'll have hardly any money left, and lots of schoolwork ( Read more... )

F: 2/2
E: 2/2 20-min run
P: 2/2 (it's before midnight on the next day, so I'm OK)
C: 2/2 sunday- I did something for myself and took a nice bath
W: 2/2

Hey! A 10-point day! Awesome!

Day 4 ( Read more... )

I have not been here for a while. It is too difficult to post when I think J may be searching my 'puter history ( Read more... )

I have 9 days. He went away last night to take a short vacation- he's off to a farm to pick apples and hunt a little and hang out with our friend who owns the farm, and a hunting friend of his ( Read more... )

I love "thinspiration" pictures. I love looking at very thin people. I dated a guy once who was 6'3" and about 140lbs, and he was lovely to me. I know I shouldn't look, but I just love seeing thin bodies.

Tues, 24th, Day 2 ( Read more... )

I need to absolutely finalize the school thing with J. I hate that he's my boss, I hate that I will hurt his business by working less. I really really regret the day I offered to work for him ( Read more... )

Hm. It's like he read my journal or something. He wanted to "talk"- so we did. I don't really like to talk ( Read more... )