updates
I have not been here for a while. It is too difficult to post when I think J may be searching my 'puter history.
-I am in school FT, getting the credits necessary to apply to Queens next yr and get my 2nd degree
-I am still working for J
-A cat has come to live with me.
-My doggie is still alive but doesn't move on her own. The wheelchair is good except that she has a rash on her belly.
She is still "with it" and wants to be with me, and wants to do things. She is the "cop" around the house with the cat, keeps him in line.
-My back and hip still hurt. I am trying to determine exercise I can do.
-I walk on eggshells around J constanlty but he hasn't gone after me seriously lately
-We hired someone to take over my job, but J didn't like him for whatever reason. J was a total dick to this guy. It ended by J THROWING A PHONE at him! This violence really concerns me.
I promised my doggie I would not leave her, but I am questioning that all the time. I should move to Alberta or the Yukon by July, but I don't know how I can if she is still around. I can't imagine leaving her before her time is up. I keep thinking "I will stay for her last few months"... but what if it turns into her last few years?
I also have to decide if I should call the ex-employee and urge him to press assault charges. If that happens, J will probably get his guns taken away. I am not REALLY concerned about him being violent towards me, but if I heard this story from any other woman I would be urging her to get out fast.
I am not sure how to leave him. I could dissappear. I could tell him I am just moving to gain Alberta residency for med school admissions (avoiding all issues entirely). I could talk to him about it and be adult about it, but that leaves me open to emotional abuse again, since he won't be happy.
-I am in school FT, getting the credits necessary to apply to Queens next yr and get my 2nd degree
-I am still working for J
-A cat has come to live with me.
-My doggie is still alive but doesn't move on her own. The wheelchair is good except that she has a rash on her belly.
She is still "with it" and wants to be with me, and wants to do things. She is the "cop" around the house with the cat, keeps him in line.
-My back and hip still hurt. I am trying to determine exercise I can do.
-I walk on eggshells around J constanlty but he hasn't gone after me seriously lately
-We hired someone to take over my job, but J didn't like him for whatever reason. J was a total dick to this guy. It ended by J THROWING A PHONE at him! This violence really concerns me.
I promised my doggie I would not leave her, but I am questioning that all the time. I should move to Alberta or the Yukon by July, but I don't know how I can if she is still around. I can't imagine leaving her before her time is up. I keep thinking "I will stay for her last few months"... but what if it turns into her last few years?
I also have to decide if I should call the ex-employee and urge him to press assault charges. If that happens, J will probably get his guns taken away. I am not REALLY concerned about him being violent towards me, but if I heard this story from any other woman I would be urging her to get out fast.
I am not sure how to leave him. I could dissappear. I could tell him I am just moving to gain Alberta residency for med school admissions (avoiding all issues entirely). I could talk to him about it and be adult about it, but that leaves me open to emotional abuse again, since he won't be happy.