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[atfirstlight]

My mom keeps saying she needs to find a parking lot for me to drive in. and stuff like, "When we go to Texas, I want you to bring your camera so we can tape the baby..." I have no idea what to tell her. ;_; I don't even know my own future right now, I'm so relient on others

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[suhe]

I'm kind of dissatisfied with both terms for it. It makes me want to go make up my own term which, if created, would only be used by us and our systems. -.-;

And about control... Yeah, I have a lot of control over mine, because I care about what people think of me. I don't want them to do something and have it come back to me negatively. I don't know if that will change when I get out of the house, or what.

It's... I don't know. The way I've thought of it for a long time (years?) is that I create them, and I can control them, but they're not me. I used to use them. I used to bring them to me whenever I needed company/comfort. It's not like they came to me, in the way you're describing it. I'd bring them to me, and expect them to be able to make me feel better, and so they would. Not anymore, though