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[atfirstlight]

My mom keeps saying she needs to find a parking lot for me to drive in. and stuff like, "When we go to Texas, I want you to bring your camera so we can tape the baby..." I have no idea what to tell her. ;_; I don't even know my own future right now, I'm so relient on others

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I'm kind of dissatisfied with both terms for it. It makes me want to go make up my own term which, if created, would only be used by us and our systems. -.-;

And about control... Yeah, I have a lot of control over mine, because I care about what people think of me. I don't want them to do something and have it come back to me negatively. I don't know if that will change when I get out of the house, or what.

It's... I don't know. The way I've thought of it for a long time (years?) is that I create them, and I can control them, but they're not me. I used to use them. I used to bring them to me whenever I needed company/comfort. It's not like they came to me, in the way you're describing it. I'd bring them to me, and expect them to be able to make me feel better, and so they would. Not anymore, though.

About speaking through them... I don't know. A couple of your soulbonds talk a lot about you and how your day has been, but they seem to be "with" you, whereas mine aren't... so maybe it's different. I tend to talk through them more directly; it's less about experiences and more about passing along information/warnings. (With some exceptions, but lately we tend to cross-check with each other: "Can I use this story even though it happened to you, not me?")

I think you've always been more into it than me. I noticed that way back when you introduced me to the term "soulbonding". Which isn't to say that you're better than me, since it's purely subjective, but you put more of yourself into it.

I also think I've been dissociating myself from my own bonds more and more, trying to get them to be seen as not-Lori. Also, I've been really, really wanting to have spaces of their own, physical spaces, to put their physical things.

I don't know. I wouldn't mind chucking the term "soulbond" but I don't want to skip right ahead to "multiple personality"... because it's not my personality. I just let them borrow space and set up their own lives.

There's got to be another word for it. >_>;; Stuffstuffstuff anyway. Yeah.