Lesson 1 : Self Diagnosis ( Read more... )

there is a half drunken beer sitting next to my computer monitor and a mixture of emptied and not so emptied glasses cluttering my desk space. my cell phone is charging, dangling by the noose that is a wire connecting it to my wall. dead batteries lie there without rolling into the bottle of pills i haven't been taking as the doctor has directed. ( Read more... )

it's late and i haven't seen a light for miles. my ratty ford pickup chauffer's me down the mile of bumpy dirt road to my house. my cigarette burns slowly from my lips and my new flanel shirt my wife bought me is tugging in the sleves. i suppose i haven't worked this shirt in yet. the light is on in my humble home and i'm sure my loving wife will ( Read more... )

halloween 2k4 - this morning 3/25/05

r.i.p my moustache

it's been fun

what can i say besides carbombs and boondock saints on st. patty's? oh yeah i downed copious amounts of carbomb within an hour and within the following hours i ( Read more... )

the boat is sailing on and i'm overboard with a wet rope to hold on to. the don't know i'm off the deck and i'm being led on.
and on
and on
do i hold on for dear life or do i let go?
timing is everything
nothing is going my way
leaving me with a wet rope and a mouth full of water

yet the strength to hold on does not fade.

this is a letter that will probably never see the post office. this is a letter that will never have a montage of like springy adventurous music background shots of it making from my hands to yours. this, is a letter unlike any other i've ever sent but exactly like the countless others i decided against sending. things haven't changed in the ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night which made me very happy. it was about you. when i woke up i didn't know that it was only a dream and i was pleased with my life for a few minutes until i realized that none of it actually happened. i almost felt like i lost it all and what a downer that is. either way. at least i had that happiness.

today was good i got alot of love for my birthday. thank you to everyone

tomorrow, tuesday feb 22 marks the day that i'm 21 and it might get messy.

ps - i crashed my car in the snow last night and i had to replace a tire but it doesn't matter because i'm trading in that peice of crap tomorrow for my new car. how unlucky/lucky is that?