Seriously... when will I stop feeling like this? A friend said it would happen once I "..." someone else. I am not ready for that. I just want to feel normal again. This is truly really stupid. My feelings don't even count for much. No one else cares. It's just be bitching about it per usual.
It's almost been a year, but not quite. The same drama is circling around.
He calls. I light up. He got what he wanted. I lit up. He called. I called. I called again. I called once more... He disappeared. Hopefully I won't fall apart this time.
1. i was contacted on Sunday 2. i was contacted again on Wednesday 3. i was propositioned on Wednesday 4. i was offended 5. i got over it. 6. i called back on Thursday 7. i want to give it a shot.
It seems so forced now. I don’t like this at all. I’m being short on purpose. I know you are only talking to me because I shamed you into doing it. It doesn’t feel the same anymore. It only makes me sad. This doesn’t work like it did It doesn’t seem… It doesn’t feel… It is forced.