so, i went to dinner last night with my roommate and a friend, whom also happens to be his sorta ex-girlfriend. we ate sushi. i tried not to eat much and did very well. the friend invited me back to her place for a birthday party for one of her roommates. i ended up doing most of the cooking for them, which was really fun for me. i showed them ( Read more... )

i wonder sometimes. there's seemingly no reward, no positive outcome. i don't want to live alone, yet no one seems to want to live with me. perhaps i need to be by myself to fully discover who i really am. stunted, anxious, depressed. my mood swings are becoming more frequent. alcohol consumption has increased vastly within the past 6 months ( Read more... )

i get excited about the future, yet it's pointless for me to make plans based on something that has not yet happened. i don't feel connected to anyone i know anymore. it's impossible for me to fully trust anyone. paranoia of being screwed over is setting in, but then i rationalize that as a part of normal life and there's nothing i can really do ( Read more... )

wow, looks like i'm off to a great start already by updating my journal frequently. :P today i'm just whiling away the time until i receive some actual work from my boss. i've been scanning the archives of many other chats ( Read more... )

i'm not quite sure why i'm doing this. i suppose it came from the article i read today that led me to a bunch of journal sites, and after reading until my head ached from the glare, i thought, "what the hell," and am now creating my own LJ. that, and the mind-numbing, forehead-slapping boredom i experience every day at work ( Read more... )