I posted this to my personal blog, but wanted to... I dunno... share it with others? Look for similarities? This is my first post to this community. Sorry about the TL;DR;
Hello. I'm sorry you went through all of that.... I got diagnosed with social anxiety several years ago. I still hate things like parties, but I seem to like DIR EN GREY concerts and tori amos ones, but not parties where I have to meet people I don't know.
I've got to do something about that. My shyness is off and on.
it takes me a while to get comfortable with people, then I am kind of quirky and weird, but I can get anxiety in a room full of, well, queer folks who are definitely not hostile people with weapons... But I'm all like FEAR.
Not to mention I fear the thought of having a large wedding when I should get married (Assuming I can break the shyness enough to find a nice man who will not drag me off to meet his family without warning and cause me to want to hide under a bed or something)
Heh. I get really nervous when trying to communicate in comments on LJ. Like this one right here! I just never know what the appropriate thing to say or do is. Do I respond to every comment to show that I appreciated the comment, or do I only respond if I have something interesting to say or add? The whole thing is really rather annoying.
i have a lot to say and very little time to say it, so i will make this as basic and clear as possible: i can relate to just about everything that you've said. the beating yourself up that eventually scared the bullies- pure genius. i never figured that out till middle school. please continue to write here, because i'm certain that 97% of everyone here is very well mannered and caring. i really like the way that you word things.
Wow, I can't stand the humiliation either and I've had to put up with it through adulthood too. I can never quite see the transition from childhood to adulthood other than very superficial privilege based legal codes for driving, drinking and having consensual adult activities and whatever else society decides to arbitrarily control
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I have related to pretty much everything that you have said. This is a very supportive group. Any kind of abuse is absolutely not tolerated here. I am glad that you are adding your voice to ours. Take care.
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I'm sorry you went through all of that....
I got diagnosed with social anxiety several years ago. I still hate things like parties, but I seem to like DIR EN GREY concerts and tori amos ones, but not parties where I have to meet people I don't know.
I've got to do something about that. My shyness is off and on.
Have a good day.
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Not to mention I fear the thought of having a large wedding when I should get married (Assuming I can break the shyness enough to find a nice man who will not drag me off to meet his family without warning and cause me to want to hide under a bed or something)
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i can relate to just about everything that you've said.
the beating yourself up that eventually scared the bullies- pure genius. i never figured that out till middle school.
please continue to write here, because i'm certain that 97% of everyone here is very well mannered and caring.
i really like the way that you word things.
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