I've changed so much in my life.

I judge things so much less than I used to, although I think to some people it looks like I judge a lot more things. I don't. So many things I used to pass negative judgment on I have opened my mind to.

I just wish other people would do the same.

Brian finally left last night. I know he was here for nearly two full weeks, but I won't lie... I didn't really want him to go. I know, he was helping me fuck myself over academic-wise (not on purpose, he tried really hard to get me to stay on track), but I love having him around. It's so much fun. The only reason I wanted him gone was because ( Read more... )

I have to keep myself up for two and a half more hours before I go to class... then the three hours I'm in class (shouldn't be nearly as difficult). Then I'll pass out until Encore at 8. Maybe. I might have to keep myself awake until after Encore, but we'll see ( Read more... )

First: Adderall is a godsend. I no longer understand why I had any issues with it. It's an amazing drug. It's 3 now and I'm just starting to crash from when I took it about 10 hours ago (which is weird because I was told I would crash around 9 this morning). Unfortunately, I can't crash yet. I still have to finish my paper... I have two hours ( Read more... )

Wow. I've been eating so very shittily lately. Now I'll have two weeks to reverse all of the damage I did over this week. Oh diet and exercise ( Read more... )

I'm so massively tired right now. I'm caught between going to bed once I get Brian up, or staying up until after work tonight. If I sleep in fifteen minutes, I have to wake up in 3 or 4 hours... However, work doesn't end until 9 tonight. Not sure if I could hold out that long ( Read more... )

I'm finding that the past few days I've just had to continue reminding myself that it doesn't matter what THEY think, it matters what HE thinks. They may not think that I'm good enough for him, but he's under the impression that I'm way too good for him (I don't think I'm too good for him; rather, I think that we're both good for each other). ( Read more... )

It's just not a fun thing. I'm going to fail a class for the first time in my life. And the worst part is, it's a BULLSHIT class. It's go to 8 performances and write a short paper and you PASS kind of class. I don't have to DO anything, and I'm going to fail. FAIL. I wouldn't care except it'll fuck with my GPA... and I've never failed before ( Read more... )

It's interesting to look back a year, two years, three and see what I wrote. Two years ago today, I wrote about you. I wrote about how I felt, about how I missed you, about how I was scared I was starting to forget. I was sad. In fact, I was more than sad. Reading it now, I almost don't believe that I wrote it. No, not because it isn't ( Read more... )

"You're perfect, Sara. You're an amazing person."

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