i just need to write......im really pissed at myself right now.....and im really sad in general right now......and im really sorry right now......and im a bunch of things right now......and i know im going to be sooo paranoid about things in the next coming weeks until i feel better.....but this sucks....like sooo much....i really was giving it my ( Read more... )

so i have decided.....this will the last of my journals...at least ones that i will let everyone see.....ive decided that from the beginning that i would give this a go.....and i did.....for almost a whole entire year.....and i look back at my firs entry and all my entrys between and wow i have changed alot within a year....and i find very unlike ( Read more... )

so we seriously broke it off like less then an hour ago.....and im already freaking out that i made a mistake....but this time i need to trust my gut instinct.....everything will work out like its suppose to ( Read more... )

ok i stick to my accusations that when it rains it pours ( Read more... )

once again this stupid program has erased all the shit i just wrote.....

i hope socaltruth is reading this you fucker. i admit i did something horrible....but what the fuck gives you the right to do what u did....i swear if i ever find out who you are i will hunt you down.

that was the synaposis of the entry.....

L.~

i feel like its impossible to smile right now.....once again everything seems to crash down at the same time.....i dont feel like im myself right now......and it's irking me.....i hate this feeling.....i dont know what i can do to make it better though......

my computer got erased....boooo
oppo

my computer is broken ahhh!! its sad to see how dependent you are on a machine....and you realize o so much when it's not available....i mean what did college students do before computers.....hard to think....i kill myslef if i had to write shit out, like papers.....hell no ( Read more... )

ok so i posted like 2 days ago....and it didnt show up....fauck this shit! everythings good and improving......school blows and i have no initave...spelt wrong.....but its good to be in orlando and getting better.....i do have to say it was a bit overload of not having 2 of my closest friends here last semester and now having them here......but i ( Read more... )

it's been some time since i have done this.....so i thought tonight it would be good as any ( Read more... )

finals are the bestest thing ever!! hah...... i feel like so frazzled....and i dont think its finals....beh who knows ( Read more... )