Addictive Obsession - Chapter five [part I]
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
Author's note: Thanks for all your support~ I wanted to say that the last chapter of Remember When is still in the process of writing because we really didn't have any time >.< I really hope to post it until the end of the month T__T Sorry for waiting :3
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Chapter five
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
We all have fears. And sometimes we try to ignore them and act tough, pretend that they don’t matter at all and that we’re stronger than them. Our fears don’t rule us, that’s what we say every day when we wake up and look into the mirror, just to gain the strength of going forward. They can’t beat us and we won’t let them bring us down. We’re stronger, we’re better and we don’t need anyone to help us because we can do it on our own.
But it’s a lie. We are just overestimating ourselves and underestimating them. Because when our fears come to get us, we can’t escape. We can’t run. We can only stay and become their prey, let ourselves be conquered by them. Be eaten by them. And if the moment comes and the only thing we can see anymore is black, then we finally realize the truth. Who was controlling who.
And we just succumb to its wishes.
He didn’t know how much he slept, but as he slowly opened his eyes, Kazuya felt the hope he didn’t realize it was there crumble down to pieces. He wasn’t in his room and definitely not in his bed. He moved a little, feeling his body sore and in pain. He became aware of the arm possessively holding his waist, of the warm body next to him. He lifted his head and saw Jin’s face now peacefully sleeping. He was cuter this way, Kazuya thought, analyzing his features. That foul mouth of his had full lips now curved into a tiny smile, his cheeks high-puffed were like those of a little hamster, only that such a tiny and sweet creature couldn’t be compared with Jin. His eyes were closed so Kazuya couldn’t see their color but he had long eyelashes that brushed over his cheeks and there was a tiny mole exactly under the corner of his right eye. This made Kazuya smile a bit as he thought about his own mole that was placed under his right eye, only a bit lower than Jin’s.
He sighed upon remembering the last events that happened between them and a slight blush colored his cheeks as there had been a sinful pleasure sweeping over him during those moments. He never thought of him to like guys nor to be attracted to them, it was just men were weaker in front of his charms. Kazuya was aware of his somewhat feminine features and that if he were to put make up on, he’d totally look like a girl. And that’s why it was easier to fool men in order to gain money. He didn’t make a profit out of this as those money were quickly spent over narcotics, but deep inside there had been a feeling of disgust each time he let himself be dirtied by lecherous men. But that’s how the drugs helped him to forget about his despicable and destructive self, about everything. And now he was to be only with Jin. He should be happy that it was going to be only one person to touch him, but he wasn’t. Because it meant that his freedom would be dimmed to almost nothing. And that’s what he wished the most - freedom to do anything he wanted and without having any restraint.
Kazuya took Jin’s arm and let it slowly rest between the two of them before getting off the bed. He took a deep breath as pain pierced through his body and hissed when his legs touched the floor shaking. He sent a death glare to Jin, it was his fault that he was in this state now.
Just then, as if he had felt Kazuya’s murderous glare, Jin half-opened his eyes, his hand searching for Kazuya’s body next to him. When he realized that he can’t find him, he finally fully opened both of his eyes to look at the younger.
“Where are you going?” Jin whined, still a little asleep.
“Nowhere.” Kazuya mumbled, turning his back at Jin. “Just to the bathroom.” He added, now fully on his legs and heading towards the bathroom.
“Hmm…” Jin murmured and stretched his body to chase away the sleep but it seemed like the sleep was chasing him instead. He growled and buried his face in the pillow, trying to get some more sleep. Even so, he found out that he can’t stay still, tossing in bed and trying to find the best position. He pouted when he realized that the reason he can’t fall asleep now is because Kazuya’s warmth is missing. He sat up on his ass, arms crossed in front of him and eyes staring at the door’s bathroom, waiting for the younger to come back.
But no one was coming out. Kazuya wasn’t ready to face him, not when his body was feeling vulnerable and shaky. Or when his own mind was weak against everything. Kazuya looked into the mirror and saw his gaudy face staring back at him. He splashed some water, hoping it will rinse some of his shame. But a sinful stain won’t come off no matter how much you brush it off, Kazuya thought bitterly as he gripped the sink’s margins. He kept on staring at the face in the mirror wondering when it will all end or when he will feel the happiness that everyone was boasting on. He saw his reflection smirk ironically as his eyes were endlessly calling him an idiot for even believing that something as happiness existed in the first place. Kazuya didn’t realize that more than fifteen minutes have passed since he had entered the bathroom.
And Jin was getting bored. What the hell was that boy doing there for so long?! He was starting to get impatient, tossing in bed more than ever, in his hopeless attempt to find sleep again. He sighed and decided that he has to take the problem into his own hands, so he climbed down of the bed and knocked at the bathroom’s door.
“Are you okay in there?” Jin asked, now a little concerned. He hadn’t been that rough with Kazuya, had he?
Kazuya took a deep breath and opened the door to meet a worried Jin. He smiled a little, though avoiding his eyes. “Sorry it took long, I just…” his voice trailed off, having no real motive to say why he stayed that long. “You could’ve gone back to sleep.” Kazuya added, licking his lips nervously.
“I tried but I couldn’t.” Jin pouted and crossed his arms again, trying to look mad but failing. “I missed you and I couldn’t fall asleep again.” he whined on a tiny voice, like Kazuya had hurt him deeply by leaving his side.
The younger chuckled softly and rounded Jin towards the bed. He pushed the man forward, scolding him lightly. “You know I have to go to courses, so stop whining.” Kazuya didn’t understand why he was acting like this, being all freely touchy and without his walls up. Somehow it felt right, though his mind was shouting desperately from one corner that it was wrong.
“Half an hour, stay with me.” Jin begged on the same hurtful tone and with puppy eyes. “Pleaseeee.” He added, holding out his hands to invite Kazuya back in bed with him.
Kazuya sighed and agreed to climb back into the bed next to Jin, letting the man hug him tightly. It felt crushing but stupidly enough reassuring. “Jin… I need my medicine.” Kazuya nuzzled into his neck, his voice a whisper.
“Why?” Jin simply asked, kissing Kazuya’s temple. “Why do you need drugs so much?” he continued, briefly aware that Kazuya won’t give him an answer. But he had to try because he wanted to discover all of Kazuya’s secrets in order to make him completely his.
Kazuya took his time in answering Jin, choosing the right words, the ones that won’t reveal his real reasons. Because he’ll forget, it will make him better. Because he’ll be able to like the Kazuya he truly was. Because this way he was able to fight back all those memories that seemed to crush on him each time they got nearer.
“Because this is what drugs do - they addict people to them.” He finally said, his fingers playing on Jin’s arm unconsciously. “And I’m pretty addicted to them. I need them weekly or once at two weeks at least.” He said frowning a little.
And Jin was Princess Theresa. It’s been so long since he started working with drugs that Jin couldn’t even remember a day when he didn’t do this. And he had seen a lot of things, crazy people completely loosing their minds for drugs, begging, crawling and always coming back for more. Kazuya wasn’t addicted to them, not in the way that drugs usually make people go crazy. He said so himself, he didn’t need them all the time, just at certain points in his life. Maybe when things got so hard that he couldn’t handle it anymore?
But Jin resisted his curiosity and refrained from asking more questions, knowing that Kazuya won’t be totally honest with him. Not yet, but soon. Instead, he smiled and hugged Kazuya even tighter, trying to tell him without words that he’ll do anything for him. “Don’t worry, I’m here.” he said in Kazuya’s hair, not really knowing why he felt the need to say so. The younger won’t believe him and Jin was aware of it. Even so, he didn’t regret those words that slipped his mouth, wanting to make Kazuya feel at least a little bit safe. In his arms, the only place where he didn’t need to wear a mask, to hide or to be someone else.
“Yeah, I know.” Kazuya replied back, thinking that he’d be a foul to think otherwise. Because Jin was keeping him as long as he offered him sex. “As long as I give you sex.” He said immediately the thought that passed through his mind. Sometimes it was he who had a foul mouth.
Jin just chuckled. “Well, it’s an important part of the deal.” he happily stated, biting Kazuya’s ear and growling like a little dog. “But…” he paused, thinking for a moment at what he was going to say. Maybe it wasn’t right because it would make him feel a little vulnerable in front of Kazuya and that was the last thing he wanted. “I would have liked to know you the normal way.” In the end, he took the risk to say his thoughts, even if he knew that if given a second chance, he would have done the same way. It was just a thought in the end.
“Well, it’s good to be dreaming.” Kazuya replied back and pulled away from Jin’s arms, now sitting straight, with his legs crossed and his hands grasping each other in his lap.
“I like dreaming.” Jin chuckled and drew his body closer to Kazuya. He raised his hand and traced a soft line on his back, starting from his hips, crawling up and circling his back, almost not touching his skin, just teasing and taunting. “What are your dreams for the future?” he asked, letting his curiosity get the better of him. But he couldn’t help it. His need of Kazuya was still huge and he desperately wanted to feed it, to make it go away. All of his efforts had been in vain until now and Jin realized that Kazuya was the only one who could help him. He didn’t want to let go, he didn’t want to separate from Kazuya. He’d rather kill the younger than have this.
Kazuya’s body stiffened as Jin caressed briefly his skin, making him shiver in pleasure. He closed his eyes and bit on his lips, his body arching a little. He felt those soft touches down in his loins and somehow it felt hard to breath. He liked it that way. And that’s when Jin brought him back to reality.
“My dreams?” Kazuya asked as in daze. “I don’t have any.” He simply answered, realizing that this was the truth. Somehow it felt empty. “Do you?” he then asked, glancing at Jin.
Jin seemed to be deep in his thoughts, his hand continuing the little game on Kazuya’s back. “Not really.” he finally answered, looking up to meet those brown orbs that had him hypnotized. “I don’t have dreams, I have goals.” He clarified after. “Dreams are for those who wish for something to happen. I take my life in my own hands and always get what I want. I don’t need dreams when I have reality.” He didn’t know why the only example he thought of in that moment was that he had obtained Kazuya’s body in a forceful but successful way, but it seemed to be the best for now. Not the fact that he had managed to completely change his whole life only through willpower, but the fact that Kazuya was now standing next to him.
The younger laughed, trying to shrug away that exciting sensation that Jin’s fingers offered his back. “But it is said that people often dream.” Kazuya said, completely aware that such a thing doesn’t apply to him. “Haven’t you found yourself day dreaming?”
“I don’t have time for that.” Jin slowly replied, as if he was trying to find his words. He lifted himself and moved to sit behind Kazuya, circling his waist with his hands and letting his chin rest on the younger’s shoulder. “But I wish I had.” he confessed, closing his eyes and breathing slowly.
Kazuya was too self-conscious all of a sudden. His body reacted to Jin’s closeness, tensing immediately while warmth was spreading all over him. He didn’t like this sensation that kind of overwhelmed him, realizing that this way he might come to enjoy his time with Jin, he might like to sleep with the man that had confined his freedom just for sex. “See? You’re dreaming.” He chuckled softly, letting his head fall on Jin’s. “Wishing is like dreaming, that’s what you said, right? By wishing time means that you’re dreaming of something to happen.” He added with a victorious tone. “There, JinJin, you’re dreaming even if you don’t acknowledge that.” He ended with a childish tone, not realizing that he had nicknamed the man.
Jin raised an inquiring eyebrow at the man in his arms, wondering when he had become ‘JinJin’. Well, he wasn’t one to complain about something like that so he smiled and laughed in Kazuya’s ear at the boy’s antics. “Maybe.” he whispered, his cheek slightly brushing Kazuya’s. “But then again, I wish to be president and to make a lot of sweet things legal but that’s never gonna happen, right?” he laughed again, his lips finding Kazuya’s neck and his tongue starting to lick it like it was suddenly drawn to that part of the younger’s body.
“No… stop.” Kazuya murmured, though he exposed his neck inviting. “I better go… classes.” He added, gulping as he felt his insides curl into a ball of fire. Had he ever been like this? Willing, lustful and wanting? He can’t remember.
Jin didn’t seem to hear him or if he did, he chose to ignore Kazuya. He smirked when he felt the younger responding to his advances and he let his tongue go around his neck, kissing his shoulders and climbing down on Kazuya’s back. His hand was busy teasing the front part of his body, caressing his chest with slow and inviting moves, not lowering itself more than his waist. He was still playing nice because he also knew that Kazuya had classes. He didn’t really care that much but he didn’t know the younger’s opinion about this matter so he decided to go slower than usual, letting the boy to decide if he wanted more through his body.
If the first impression was bad then maybe the second can be better.
But it wasn’t right to feel like this. Kazuya didn’t want to let himself feel like this, not when the desire was clouding his mind, making it foggy and only receptive to Jin. He shuddered as he felt the naughty tongue tease his skin, leaving hot traces behind. He wanted to lean, he wanted Jin to touch more but if he does so, then he’d lose himself in the lust. He’d give in once more to Jin. He grabbed the hand that kept on touching him and grasped it tightly. His mouth was dry and his breathing rasp. He moved away from Jin’s lips by leaning forward, letting him know that he had to stop otherwise he won’t be able to get to school.
“I can’t.” he said, looking back at Jin, his eyes darkened by passion. “I really need to go.” He continued, a hint of apologize in his voice. Kazuya licked his lips, realizing embarrassed that he had gotten hard. “Umm… sorry, but can you let me dress?” he asked with a plea in his eyes. “Alone?” he added, once more passing his tongue over his dry lips.
Jin sighed. He clenched his hand into Kazuya’s hair, bringing him closer and crushing his mouth on his, kissing him hard, the desire exploding from his every limb. He licked those inviting lips a few times before he drew back a little to look into his eyes. “Are you sure you don’t want a help with that?” he asked, pointing to Kazuya’s hardened member that seemed to disagree with the younger’s decision to stop.
Kazuya’s body was shouting yes, he needed help with everything Jin could help him, but what came out of his mouth wasn’t the same. “I’ll manage.” He said on a hoarse voice, his hands shaking a little as he had brought them to hold onto Jin during that kiss. He had never felt that weak and needy like he was now. In fact, he had never felt desire hitting him as hard as it was doing now, bursting inside of him and leaving burning traces that seemed to be like fireworks. “But… kiss me one more time.” Kazuya whispered, his eyes webbed by lust. “Just once.” He said clearly.
“Just once.” Jin chuckled and leaned over to catch those pink lips with his own, nibbling gently, grabbing them with his teeth only to let them go, not once using his tongue. The hand in Kazuya’s hair forced the younger to tilt his head and Jin stuck out his tongue to lick his lips, tracing a wet line on them and circling his mouth. He licked them like a puppy, looking into Kazuya’s eyes for a moment before letting his tongue enter the hot cave and bury itself in the sensation of pleasure. He shivered and Kazuya’s body trembled in his arms. He let the kiss go slow, Kazuya being the one who was leading it completely for the first time. It was somehow weird, Jin had to admit but he liked the sensation of submitting to Kazuya’s will, to follow his steps and let him order. He brought him even closer, gluing his body to Jin’s, their erections touching and making both of them release a guttural moan.
Kazuya was the one to pull back, hissing through his teeth as he detached himself completely from Jin. He was desperate for the warmth he had just run from, he was craving for Jin. But he had to stop otherwise he’d compromise himself. He wasn’t going to sleep with Jin because of his own desires, he’s to sleep with him because Jin wanted so. He wasn’t going to fool himself into believing… what? Kazuya closed his eyes as he tried to calm down his breath. His lips were still wet and wanting from the kiss and his eyes were full of desire. He pulled the sheet around him, covering his erection.
“Thanks.” He murmured as he looked down while biting his lower lips and with his cheeks flushed.
Oh, God, this boy was going to kill him soon. Jin groaned unhappy when Kazuya ran from him, fisting the sheets in his hand. Even so, he sighed and kissed him briefly before getting up. “I’ll take a shower in the other bath so call me if you need something. I’ll be back in fifteen minutes and then I’ll take you to school, okay?” he kissed him one more time, this time on his forehead, before turning his back to fetch some clothes and leave the room.
Kazuya sighed relieved the minute Jin left the room, now being able to think clear for once. He sat on the bed a few minutes, just thinking about things and coming to realization towards some. He didn’t like to feel like this around Jin, especially when the man had humiliated him enough for just one night. He should have brushed him off the moment they woke up, he should have run from him the moment he woke up! Not to cuddle with Jin, not to kiss him, not to yearn for him. After having his body violated like that, Kazuya should have left immediately. Yet he didn’t do it.
He got up from the bed and headed for the bathroom. He would take a quick shower before going to college, just to refresh himself. When he stepped into the shower and felt the water pouring down on him, he couldn’t help but feel gleeful. He turned his face towards the water, letting it be hit by thousand of warm droplets as if massaging it. Why didn’t he do it? Why didn’t he leave the moment his eyes sprang open and realized what had happened? He didn’t know. Maybe it was because of his friends, of his life he had built around him. He was afraid for them.
No!
It wasn’t like that. He knew that friends come and go, he was sure that it wasn’t because of them. Of course, he wouldn’t let them get hurt, but he was sure that they wouldn’t want him to be hurt so they would have eventually understood if Kazuya had really decided to flee from Jin, risking their lives. What crap! Kazuya laughed to himself, of course no one would understand. No one cared or loved him enough to do something like this.
Love?
Maybe this was the answer behind the reason he didn’t leave? Maybe he was searching for someone that could love him, that could show him that there might be something for him too? Someone that could give him a place to return, a warmth where he could cuddle without being shooed? Was he really searching for something like this? Maybe, yet he was sure that Jin wasn’t that person. Because he would take from Kazuya what he valued the most - freedom. Jin won’t held back from taking everything from him if that meant he would stay by his side; the younger had seen that very clear last night. He wasn’t afraid to lose everything as long as he had freedom. Yet Jin made him afraid in a way.
Kazuya leaned on the shower cabin, thinking of all he had come to realize. Could there really be a need as deep as the one for love inside his soul? Could he really be afraid that much of one more person that his mother?
Everything is possible, Kazuya concluded.
A knock was heard outside the room, but the sound of the water stopped every noise from coming inside the bathroom. A second knock and the door was slowly opened, Jin sneaking his head into the room, calling Kazuya’s name. He heard the sound of the shower and rolled his eyes when he realized that Kazuya had again forgotten to get out of the bathroom. He walked to the other door and knocked again but no answer came this time either. He was starting to get angry so he pushed open the door, walking inside and grinning to himself when he saw Kazuya’s naked form through the shower’s glass. He tip-toed, trying to not make any noise now that he was close enough for Kazuya to hear it. With one swift movement, he opened the shower cabin, the same smug grin pasted on his face.
“Kazu ~. ” he whined, a few drops of water hitting him in the face.
Surprised, Kazuya almost jumped and clutched onto the cabin’s doors, but he relaxed immediately when he saw Jin. No, he relaxed for a few moments, because his body tensed and he eyed the man warily. He had nothing to cover himself with, only the water to surround himself in the warm steam. “Fuck…” he uttered, lots of water entering his mouth. “Jin! You scared me!” he then added, touching the place where his heart was beating crazily, though not sure if it was because of the fright or because of Jin’s presence.
“Good.” Jin teasingly answered, stepping into the cabin and pinning Kazuya to the wall. His clothes were completely wet by now but it was a nice feeling, Jin concluded, rubbing his clothed body onto Kazuya’s naked one. He didn’t have patience for anything at all and the image of a wet Kazuya was so arousing that Jin found himself devouring the younger’s lips, not even remembering when he got this close. His hands had trapped Kazuya’s on the wall, keeping them above his head. His mouth was needy and his body screamed his desire and his deep wish. His member was already hard and Jin groaned into the kiss, wanting more friction between the two of them.
Kazuya was shocked by the sudden burst of passion, but he had no time to protest as Jin almost molested him against the wall. He moaned against his demanding lips and struggled a little against his fully dressed body, but giving up almost immediately, taken over by his own passion. He thrust his hips into Jin’s, lifting one of his legs, now his knee rubbing against Jin’s crotch. He bit onto his lower lip before taking his tongue and sucking it slowly, maddeningly. He threw his other leg around Jin’s waist, the other one still pressing against his lower part. Kazuya smirked before leaving his lips and tongue, beginning to move his hips up and down, rubbing their hardened parts in the movement. He bit onto his neck and then licked it teasingly before going up to his ear, licking and sucking his earlobe.
“Why…” he moaned as he began a faster pace of his hips, his need as great as Jin’s.
“I want you.” Jin simply stated. He grabbed Kazuya by his hips, lifting him in the air and making him to circle Jin’s waist with both of his legs. He tilted his neck, giving Kazuya more space to explore, feeling each burning touch electrifying him. He already felt at his peak so he hurried to unbutton his jeans and to lower them, leaving the pants to fall on his knees, not bothering to completely undress. His member was poking at Kazuya’s entrance, silently asking for permission even if he felt like he wasn’t going to last and that he’ll come only from Kazuya grinding his hips against Jin’s. He turned his head, kissing the younger again, his hands now gripping Kazuya’s ass and stretching his hole a little for better access.
The younger took a deep breath as he felt Jin so close to him and grabbed tighter onto him, his nails digging in his wet clothes, almost ripping them. He answered to Jin’s ravishing kiss, wanting to lose himself in the sweet and maddening taste, to lose his head before feeling the pain that would have to follow. He moaned in the kiss as if to urge Jin to move faster, to complete him sooner. Again, that feeling of not being right what was happening between the two of them controlled him, but the need and the passion were too strong. Even if he should stop now, he won’t do it. Somehow, he needed Jin deep inside him, he needed that man to drive him crazy, to take him over boundaries.
And Jin granted his wish, entering him with a slow movement, taking advantage of the fact that Kazuya was still a little loosened up from last night. Still, it wasn’t enough and his hole was tight, Jin forcing himself to take a deep breath and to stop in the middle. He looked at Kazuya and kissed his closed eyes. He was gritting his teeth so Jin slowly licked his lips, making him relax under his caress. Kazuya opened his mouth to let out a needy moan and Jin let his tongue slip into his mouth, kissing him slowly and sucking his tongue. Soon, Kazuya’s hips were starting to move against his cock and Jin groaned when his member entered even deeper in Kazuya. He took a deep breath and slowly pulled out and with a fast move, he entered him again. He left Kazuya’s lips and sucked his skin hard, leaving small hickeys all over his chest, neck and shoulders, while he moved in and out of Kazuya.
The younger tightened his grip on Jin, burying his fingers into Jin’s hair, his nails sometimes scratching his shoulders and leaving marks. He had problems breathing and he felt like his heart will run out of his chest, scared by the sensations that his body was living. He was moaning and panting hard and moving his hips along Jin’s cock, asking for him to move faster and also feeling the desire burning in Jin’s soul. It was somehow fulfilling to know that he isn’t the only one feeling that insane desire for release and it made Kazuya a little more confident in his moves, in satisfying his own desires and not caring about the other one and the money or drugs that he can get out of him, like he usually did. He arched his body when Jin started to fasten his movements, slamming his balls on Kazuya’s ass. He moaned hard when Jin moved him even higher on the cabin’s wall to get a better angle, Jin’s hands keeping him safe from falling while his own were still buried into the older’s hair. He pulled his hair, bringing his head for another kiss, their mouths violently brushing against each other and their teeth clashing.
Jin’s moves fastened again, being more rushed and the only thing on his mind was searching for that sweet spot of Kazuya that will make the younger fly higher. A loud moan confirmed Jin that he had found it and he thrust into Kazuya’s abused hole with more power. His hand found Kazuya’s cock and started to pump it in the same rhythm. He felt Kazuya’s walls tightening and he heard him coming with a grunt, Jin also following him after a few more moves. He was breathing hard and he could feel the younger’s heart beating as fast as his, both of them trying to calm themselves. Jin drew out of Kazuya, his semen sliding down on the boy’s legs only to be washed away with the pouring water.
The younger let himself slid limply in Jin’s arms which were still circled tightly around him, leaning his head on his shoulder, panting hardly. He felt once more weak, vulnerable and this was all because of Jin. Because of the man that did him in a shower’s cabin against a slippery wall with water pouring down on them. Maybe he was crazy, but he felt happy. Happy to be hold like that, happy to be done like that and happy to have a shoulder on which he could regain his breath after an awesome round of sex. He kissed Jin on the neck and made a move back, though Jin held him even closer, not wanting to let him go. He chuckled though the water muffled the sound.
“We have to close this damn shower.” He muttered, trying once again to move, but failing to do so as Jin didn’t even bunch a bit.
“No…” Jin answered, burying his face in the nape of Kazuya’s neck. The younger sighed but since the water kept on running and it began to annoy him, he had to push Jin just a little.
But even a little was too much for Jin as he tripped in his lowered pants, his grip still tight on Kazuya who tried to pull him back only to accelerate the fall. He slipped on the water, resulting on both of them hitting some parts of the shower cabin, before Kazuya slumped onto Jin gaining a groan from the pile of mess that was him. And the water was still pouring.
“Fuck!” Kazuya swore and rose up shakily, looking at Jin. “Are you okay?” he asked, touching his body in search for any sign of pain.
“I’m not okay!” Jin whined like a child. “I think I hit my head.” he said and tried to sit on his back to let the throbbing pain disappear but succeeding to hit his head again on the cabin. A scream that seemed more like a cry was heard and Jin cursed. “Well, fuck you too.” he growled annoyed, talking with the walls.
Kazuya chuckled at the sight, being considerate enough not to laugh whole-heartedly. He outstretched his hand to Jin, offering his help while his eyes were sparkling with glee. “Now, don’t get angry and act like a child.” Kazuya said to him with a smile. “Come on, get up!”
Jin pouted but still accepted Kazuya’s hand, sitting up and facing the younger. “But it huuuuurts.” Even so, he continued to whine, making big puppy eyes at Kazuya hoping that the boy will take care of him.
The younger sighed and approached Jin, carefully not to slip once again. He put his hand on Jin’s head, making him to bend until he reached it with his lips and placed a kiss upon it. It was wet and smelled of mint. Then Kazuya slipped his hand past Jin and turned off the water. Finally there was silence and both of them wet and kind of awkward. At least from Kazuya’s part.
“Better?” he asked the man, thinking he was dealing with a five years’ old kid, not with the man that had ruthlessly fucked him against the wall of a shower’s cabin.
“Much better.” Jin happily smiled and hugged Kazuya, crushing the boy in his arms.
“Maybe you’ll want to pull up your pants.” The younger said in the bear hug he was caught in. “Just so you don’t fall again.” He added with a soft chuckle. And I should get dressed and go to school, he thought in the same time, also realizing that he’d be wearing the same clothes as yesterday, a thing that will perk up once more Koki’s interest. If possible, he’d like to avoid that.
“Oh.” Jin blushed, feeling embarrassed. But that soon passed away like it never happened when Jin simply slipped out of his jeans, kicked them with his feet and took his shirt off. “They were wet.” he shrugged, now as naked as Kazuya. He then grinned and took the younger’s hand, dragging him to follow Jin out of the bathroom, also taking a big and fluffy towel on their way out, and stopping next to the bed and facing Kazuya again.
Kazuya was being led by Jin once again and he couldn’t fight back the comfortable feeling he had. It was like he was agreeing on being like this, it was like he was enjoying this. No, he really enjoyed it. He looked at Jin and saw excitement on his face, his grin was contagious as he felt his own lips curl into a smile, a genuine one.
“Only one?” he asked lightly glancing at the towel Jin had in hand.
“Why would we need more?” Jin laughed, wrapping the towel around them and gluing his body to Kazuya’s. “I like you being close to me.” he chuckled, his hands starting to massage Kazuya’s back with the towel, wiping the water off his body.
Kazuya joined Jin in his action, using the towel too on the man. “Just don’t get hard or I’ll never get to school.” He muttered as he passed a brushing hand over Jin’s ribs. Somehow, his remark felt like that of a lover - intimate and theirs to share. He shouldn’t feel that way but again, he shouldn’t feel many.
“I can’t promise you that.” Jin mumbled more to himself, looking at the floor, but aware that Kazuya could still hear him. “But I can promise that I’ll jerk myself off before I drive you to your college and I won’t bother you!” he raised his head and proudly announced.
Kazuya laughed aloud, throwing his head back as he had done so. He then looked at Jin with twinkling eyes. “Stupid.” He muttered and placed a light kiss on Jin’s lips, then he slipped away from the towel and Jin. “I need to borrow some of your clothes.” He said to Jin as he looked around for his.
“Check in that dresser. There should be something small enough for you.” Jin crossed his arms with a thoughtful face. His eyes examined Kazuya from toes to head, a grimace appearing on his face. “You’re too skinny, you need to eat more!” he declared, smacking Kazuya’s ass in a joke.
The younger jolted and looked teary at Jin. He stuck out his tongue with a frown before heading for the dresser Jin showed to him. He rummaged slowly through it, not wanting to make any more mess than it was already. He found some black pants which seemed good enough for him, so he quickly put them on, just to find them a tad larger. He saw a belt and quickly fastened it around his waist, now more satisfied with the result. Searching a little more, he stumbled on an interesting piece of cloth - it seemed to have a long black vest attached to it, while the shirt was simple and white. Though this was way too stylish for his school outfit, Kazuya’s eyes gleamed at it. He pulled it on and it was perfect! Even if he was skinny, the vest didn’t show any of this, more like covering what he was lacking and making him look even more handsome. He turned to Jin with a happy smile.
“I’m taking these!”
“They’re yours.” Jin chuckled in response, also making his way to the dresser. It was easier for him to find some clothes, Jin picking the first ones that came into his hands and that being a pair of jeans and a simple shirt with a naked chick on it. He glanced at the clock and saw that it was 7.30 a.m. “You have to be at school at 8, right?” he asked the younger.
Kazuya looked at him, the slight twinge of annoyance ruining his good mood. After all, he really disliked when someone knew his schedule, feeling like they were breathing in the back of his neck. The younger nodded in silence at Jin and took ahead of him, grabbing his forgotten socks too. He was already at the door, putting his shoes on and waiting for Jin. The man didn’t take long and joined him, both of them leaving the apartment.
He was quite surprised to see that Jin was taking him to school by motorcycle and he couldn’t lie about the fact he was feeling quite excited about this. He watched Jin mounting the bike and signaling him to hop on. Like a little child, Kazuya hurried to climb behind of him, holding tightly onto the older’s waist. He felt the motor rumble beneath the two of them and as they marched forward with a loud growl, the wind sweeping through his hair, Kazuya couldn’t stop from grinning. Riding a motorcycle, even behind someone, gave off a feeling of freedom.
A quarter of hour later, Jin parked in front of Kazuya’s college while the younger kept tugging on his clothes and rearranging his hair at every minute. He took one last look in the rear mirror, deciding he was looking great. He turned to Jin and a sudden silence fell over him. It was awkward enough for Kazuya to have spent a night and a morning like that, putting aside the feelings the man in front of him had managed to stir. He wasn’t sure what answers all those questions in his head had, but once he’d be alone, he’ll figure them out. After all, he was the best at this.
He kept looking at Jin somewhat unsure. If this were how things went when they met for their first date, how will the others be? Kazuya shuddered at the thought but nonetheless he managed to crack a smile.
“I’m leaving.”
He turned to leave but Jin’s words stopped him in his tracks.
“When can I see you again?”
Kazuya bit his tongue and looked thoughtfully at the man. “Tomorrow or maybe the day after tomorrow.” He answered thinking of his upcoming projects from college. “You have my number, right? Call me.” He added trying to smile, though he felt an iron ball in his stomach.
Even if Kazuya was feeling a little bit weird, Jin’s smile was genuinely happy and bigger than it ever was. “Take care of you and see you soon.” He waved at Kazuya as the younger turned his back at him, heading for the building. He didn’t move from his spot until the small figure disappeared from his sight.
*
Four.
Four days have passed and Kazuya hasn’t heard a thing from Jin. He was quite expecting the man to call immediately after what happened between them, but it seemed that he had been proven wrong. He had refused every invitation from his friends in case Jin would call him, making sure that his time was free. It wasn’t like he wanted to meet with Jin or anything, it was simply precaution. The man was serious about hurting his friends - or at least, he had managed to make him believe so - and Kazuya wasn’t one to take such risks on his friends’ expense. It was weird though. These silent four days, after Jin showed him how desperate he could be after his body, were very peculiar and gave the younger a feeling of anxiety and nervousness. He was all jumpy when someone would call him, looking immediately at his phone with a slight tremble in the fingers. But there would be relief and maybe disappointment when no unknown number would appear to be calling him.
And now he was pacing up and down through his apartment, having once more that uneasy feeling in his chest. He disliked being kept in the dark and he disliked even more feeling haunted and afraid. He didn’t even have his drugs, at least it would keep him occupied. Jin forgot to supply him, though these four days there have been no more nightmares. He stopped in front of his desk and looked at the neatly arranged things. He had done his projects, he had all his courses written down and almost memorized and he had been once more praised by the teacher for his involvement in different activities, exposing new ideas that have helped greatly. His life was nearly perfect - college was excellent, his friends were great too, he had an apartment all for himself - he lived freely and with enough for a decent life. Yet he had been disappointed in that and looked for more. This perfect life of his never protected him from his nightmares and never offered security. They could be gone in a blink of an eye, as Jin has showed it to him a few days ago. Not that Kazuya wasn’t aware of such thing, he knew very well the short length of such a happy life. He had seen it crumble before.
But Kazuya never wanted to be tied to a man like Jin. He never wished for something like this, he simply wanted to enjoy his life more and to forget. Now, Jin would never let him forget.
His phone rang, making Kazuya jump in the air before glancing at the highlighting mobile. His heart began to beat faster and his hands were already sweating. He licked his lips nervously before reaching for the phone and sighing in relief.
“Hello?” he said with a hoarse voice.
“Kameeeeee-chaaaaan!!” came the cheery voice of Junno making the younger smile.
“Yes, Junno?”
“Join us~” his friend chuckled. “We’re at this awesome pub you sure don’t want to miss!”
“I…” Kazuya wanted to say but was quickly interrupted.
“Come with us, you’re avoiding us for a while~” Junno whined and he felt guilty.
“Tell the turtle to move his skinny ass here quicker or I’m going to beat him!” another voice growled near Junno’s phone and Kazuya laughed.
“Okay.” He agreed, laughing even more when he heard the high-five of his friends. “Tell Ueda he’s going to buy me a drink for calling me a turtle!” he added before hanging up and getting prepared.
His friends were right, he had been avoiding them because of Jin. But seeing that the man hasn’t searched for him at all, he wasn’t going to barricade himself in the house waiting for a damn call. He may have agreed on going to him each time Jin said so, but that wasn’t a reason to refuse his friends’ invitation. And also, his friends were okay to hang out, right? Jin had said so that night.
Kazuya hummed before exiting the apartment, heading for the pub, its address already mailed by Junno through his cell phone. He reached it quite quickly, paid the taxi driver and entered the local. It sure was something Kazuya would have hated to miss. It was all shiny wood, dim lights and good music. The tables had that intimate feeling, being more further from each other, while its occupants were enjoying themselves with a pint of beer or some classy drinks. He glanced briefly at the long bar and saw its shiny shelves full with glittering bottles of alcohol. He saw that there were some stairs probably taking somewhere even more intimate as the dimmed sounds of laughter floated through the music. The pub had a very western feeling and he enjoyed it a lot. He looked left and right for his friends nowhere to be found, but as he looked up again he saw Maru’s head popping and signaling him to go up. He climbed the wooden stairs, surprised at their soft touch and found his friends sitting at a far cornered table, drinking and laughing at each other’s stories and stupidity. His face broke into a smile as he got closer, realizing how much he needed such things going on in his life.
“Glad to have your almighty presence within us!” Ueda said with a wicked gleam in his eyes.
“Shut up.” Kazuya replied and took a seat next to Maru with a huge grin plastered on his face. “Where’s my beer, Uebo?”
“Just about to arrive.” The other replied and smirked when a woman approached them with a tray containing five shots, a cut lemon, some salt and a full bottle with tequila. Kazuya whistled at the sight and looked surprised at the guys.
“Is someone’s birthday?” he asked jokingly.
“No, but it’s a rare thing having us gather like this.” Koki answered and maybe Kazuya sensed some bitterness behind the happy tone he had used. “Beside, Uebo’s paying!” he then grinned, earning himself a light punch from the man beside him.
The other three burst into laughter. Kazuya loved his friends the most, feeling warm and cozy to be among them. They began to talk about every bit of this and that, silence to be faked when Junno’s bad puns would barge in, only to have the tall man cling onto them, calling each one of them a meanie. They would just tease back. Everything was perfect, just like his life, but as all perfect things come to an end, so did Kazuya’s.
They didn’t notice the man approaching their table until his hand grabbed lightly Kazuya’s shoulder, making the boy look up with a smile that slowly faded when he saw the person.
“Jin…” he said softly, almost a whisper. His friends looked curious at the newcomer, only Koki to be focusing on Kazuya who had gone a bit paler.
“Hey!” Jin greeted Kazuya and bowed his head a little at his friends. He was smiling politely but his eyes had a weird glint in them, fortunately hidden by the club’s lights. “How have you been?” he then asked, not removing his hand from Kazuya’s shoulder.
Kazuya gulped and smiled once more. If he was going to act unnaturally, his friends would get suspicious. “I’ve been good, been busy with projects and co.” he answered Jin’s question.
“Yeah and he refused us each time we gathered up.” Junno interfered with a whiny voice. “But tonight we got lucky.” He then grinned, making his friends chuckle and Kazuya blush a little. There wasn’t a need to fill into so much details, he wanted to say, but refrained from doing so.
“Are you Kazuya’s friend too?” Ueda asked politely, looking at him with curiosity.
“Won’t you join us?” Maru added, making some free space for Jin to sit.
Jin looked inquiringly at Kazuya, trying to read his mind but failing. He could tell that the younger is a little afraid of what would Jin do in the presence of his friends so he tried to calm down Kazuya, squishing his shoulder a little at Maru’s question. But he had to admit that he wasn’t as innocent as he seemed to be and he had wanted to ask Kazuya some things. One of his questions had been answered immediately by Kazuya’s friends and Jin realized that the reason the younger hadn’t been out with his friends at all was him. Was he so afraid? It was true that Jin was still monitoring his every move and that’s how he knew that he’s at this pub but the older one still hoped that Kazuya would understand that he’s doing it for his own good.
He just wanted to protect him.
“Can I?” he asked instead, looking with puppy eyes at Kazuya and knowing that he can’t really refuse without some explanations to his friends that Jin was sure he wasn’t that willing to give.
Was Jin testing him? Kazuya asked himself. If he was, then he won’t give him any satisfaction. “Sure, why not?” he replied cheerfully. “The more, the merrier, right, guys?” he then said, back to his usual self before Jin’s arrival.
“Oh, by the way, he’s Jin.” Kazuya then introduced him to his friends, thinking for a second. “We met at a club two weeks ago and we… kinda hanged out after that.” He added with a silly smile. “Jin, they are Maru, Junno, Koki and Ueda.” He presented them in the order they were seated.
“Nice to meet you!” all four said at once, laughing at their synch. Kazuya too chuckled before he met Jin’s eyes. It seemed unnatural to see him among his friends and he knew that he had to put up his defenses again. He had to be careful at not getting drunk and also at what Jin was going to say. This night was another challenge to them.
Jin answered to their greeting and sat down. He quickly hit it off with them, laughing and joking like they have been best buddies since ever. Only Koki seemed to be a bit reserved, though his attitude changed slowly to his usual and rough self. Soon, another shot was brought for Jin and another bottle - vodka this time - accompanied it too. This time, Jin’s treat. They all cheered and Kazuya refrained from grimacing. He was amazed at Jin, seeing him blend with his friends, laughing and telling jokes or stories like nothing happened between the two of them, like he never threatened their lives to keep Kazuya beside him. He was also surprised at his friends’ quick approval of him, Ueda saying the most shocking thing.
“He seems like a good guy.” He hardly said that of anyone, because Ueda had a huge problem with trusting people, so for him each and everyone seemed bad or malicious to a certain degree.
Kazuya almost choked with his drink upon hearing him and began to cough slightly, Ueda’s hand patting and caressing his back gently, chuckling at the clumsy boy.
“Umm… he is.” The younger finally answered, wiping the spilt drink off his chin. He was the best liar, Kazuya concluded, but there seemed to be an even better one as he glanced once more at Jin, studying his antics, seeming almost normal. But he wasn’t and Kazuya knew it the best.
“I’m boooored~” said Junno out of the blue making everyone stare at him. “What?” he blinked sweetly, earning himself a whack in the head from Koki. “Baldie!” he stuck out his tongue at him, making everyone laugh.
“Then, let’s play something.” Ueda suggested, his eyes twinkling. “Or do you want to go home?” he added with a glare. Although Kazuya would have been happy to say he wants to do so, he shook his head in denial like the rest. “Good. Any ideas?”
Part II
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
Author's note: Thanks for all your support~ I wanted to say that the last chapter of Remember When is still in the process of writing because we really didn't have any time >.< I really hope to post it until the end of the month T__T Sorry for waiting :3
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Chapter five
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
We all have fears. And sometimes we try to ignore them and act tough, pretend that they don’t matter at all and that we’re stronger than them. Our fears don’t rule us, that’s what we say every day when we wake up and look into the mirror, just to gain the strength of going forward. They can’t beat us and we won’t let them bring us down. We’re stronger, we’re better and we don’t need anyone to help us because we can do it on our own.
But it’s a lie. We are just overestimating ourselves and underestimating them. Because when our fears come to get us, we can’t escape. We can’t run. We can only stay and become their prey, let ourselves be conquered by them. Be eaten by them. And if the moment comes and the only thing we can see anymore is black, then we finally realize the truth. Who was controlling who.
And we just succumb to its wishes.
He didn’t know how much he slept, but as he slowly opened his eyes, Kazuya felt the hope he didn’t realize it was there crumble down to pieces. He wasn’t in his room and definitely not in his bed. He moved a little, feeling his body sore and in pain. He became aware of the arm possessively holding his waist, of the warm body next to him. He lifted his head and saw Jin’s face now peacefully sleeping. He was cuter this way, Kazuya thought, analyzing his features. That foul mouth of his had full lips now curved into a tiny smile, his cheeks high-puffed were like those of a little hamster, only that such a tiny and sweet creature couldn’t be compared with Jin. His eyes were closed so Kazuya couldn’t see their color but he had long eyelashes that brushed over his cheeks and there was a tiny mole exactly under the corner of his right eye. This made Kazuya smile a bit as he thought about his own mole that was placed under his right eye, only a bit lower than Jin’s.
He sighed upon remembering the last events that happened between them and a slight blush colored his cheeks as there had been a sinful pleasure sweeping over him during those moments. He never thought of him to like guys nor to be attracted to them, it was just men were weaker in front of his charms. Kazuya was aware of his somewhat feminine features and that if he were to put make up on, he’d totally look like a girl. And that’s why it was easier to fool men in order to gain money. He didn’t make a profit out of this as those money were quickly spent over narcotics, but deep inside there had been a feeling of disgust each time he let himself be dirtied by lecherous men. But that’s how the drugs helped him to forget about his despicable and destructive self, about everything. And now he was to be only with Jin. He should be happy that it was going to be only one person to touch him, but he wasn’t. Because it meant that his freedom would be dimmed to almost nothing. And that’s what he wished the most - freedom to do anything he wanted and without having any restraint.
Kazuya took Jin’s arm and let it slowly rest between the two of them before getting off the bed. He took a deep breath as pain pierced through his body and hissed when his legs touched the floor shaking. He sent a death glare to Jin, it was his fault that he was in this state now.
Just then, as if he had felt Kazuya’s murderous glare, Jin half-opened his eyes, his hand searching for Kazuya’s body next to him. When he realized that he can’t find him, he finally fully opened both of his eyes to look at the younger.
“Where are you going?” Jin whined, still a little asleep.
“Nowhere.” Kazuya mumbled, turning his back at Jin. “Just to the bathroom.” He added, now fully on his legs and heading towards the bathroom.
“Hmm…” Jin murmured and stretched his body to chase away the sleep but it seemed like the sleep was chasing him instead. He growled and buried his face in the pillow, trying to get some more sleep. Even so, he found out that he can’t stay still, tossing in bed and trying to find the best position. He pouted when he realized that the reason he can’t fall asleep now is because Kazuya’s warmth is missing. He sat up on his ass, arms crossed in front of him and eyes staring at the door’s bathroom, waiting for the younger to come back.
But no one was coming out. Kazuya wasn’t ready to face him, not when his body was feeling vulnerable and shaky. Or when his own mind was weak against everything. Kazuya looked into the mirror and saw his gaudy face staring back at him. He splashed some water, hoping it will rinse some of his shame. But a sinful stain won’t come off no matter how much you brush it off, Kazuya thought bitterly as he gripped the sink’s margins. He kept on staring at the face in the mirror wondering when it will all end or when he will feel the happiness that everyone was boasting on. He saw his reflection smirk ironically as his eyes were endlessly calling him an idiot for even believing that something as happiness existed in the first place. Kazuya didn’t realize that more than fifteen minutes have passed since he had entered the bathroom.
And Jin was getting bored. What the hell was that boy doing there for so long?! He was starting to get impatient, tossing in bed more than ever, in his hopeless attempt to find sleep again. He sighed and decided that he has to take the problem into his own hands, so he climbed down of the bed and knocked at the bathroom’s door.
“Are you okay in there?” Jin asked, now a little concerned. He hadn’t been that rough with Kazuya, had he?
Kazuya took a deep breath and opened the door to meet a worried Jin. He smiled a little, though avoiding his eyes. “Sorry it took long, I just…” his voice trailed off, having no real motive to say why he stayed that long. “You could’ve gone back to sleep.” Kazuya added, licking his lips nervously.
“I tried but I couldn’t.” Jin pouted and crossed his arms again, trying to look mad but failing. “I missed you and I couldn’t fall asleep again.” he whined on a tiny voice, like Kazuya had hurt him deeply by leaving his side.
The younger chuckled softly and rounded Jin towards the bed. He pushed the man forward, scolding him lightly. “You know I have to go to courses, so stop whining.” Kazuya didn’t understand why he was acting like this, being all freely touchy and without his walls up. Somehow it felt right, though his mind was shouting desperately from one corner that it was wrong.
“Half an hour, stay with me.” Jin begged on the same hurtful tone and with puppy eyes. “Pleaseeee.” He added, holding out his hands to invite Kazuya back in bed with him.
Kazuya sighed and agreed to climb back into the bed next to Jin, letting the man hug him tightly. It felt crushing but stupidly enough reassuring. “Jin… I need my medicine.” Kazuya nuzzled into his neck, his voice a whisper.
“Why?” Jin simply asked, kissing Kazuya’s temple. “Why do you need drugs so much?” he continued, briefly aware that Kazuya won’t give him an answer. But he had to try because he wanted to discover all of Kazuya’s secrets in order to make him completely his.
Kazuya took his time in answering Jin, choosing the right words, the ones that won’t reveal his real reasons. Because he’ll forget, it will make him better. Because he’ll be able to like the Kazuya he truly was. Because this way he was able to fight back all those memories that seemed to crush on him each time they got nearer.
“Because this is what drugs do - they addict people to them.” He finally said, his fingers playing on Jin’s arm unconsciously. “And I’m pretty addicted to them. I need them weekly or once at two weeks at least.” He said frowning a little.
And Jin was Princess Theresa. It’s been so long since he started working with drugs that Jin couldn’t even remember a day when he didn’t do this. And he had seen a lot of things, crazy people completely loosing their minds for drugs, begging, crawling and always coming back for more. Kazuya wasn’t addicted to them, not in the way that drugs usually make people go crazy. He said so himself, he didn’t need them all the time, just at certain points in his life. Maybe when things got so hard that he couldn’t handle it anymore?
But Jin resisted his curiosity and refrained from asking more questions, knowing that Kazuya won’t be totally honest with him. Not yet, but soon. Instead, he smiled and hugged Kazuya even tighter, trying to tell him without words that he’ll do anything for him. “Don’t worry, I’m here.” he said in Kazuya’s hair, not really knowing why he felt the need to say so. The younger won’t believe him and Jin was aware of it. Even so, he didn’t regret those words that slipped his mouth, wanting to make Kazuya feel at least a little bit safe. In his arms, the only place where he didn’t need to wear a mask, to hide or to be someone else.
“Yeah, I know.” Kazuya replied back, thinking that he’d be a foul to think otherwise. Because Jin was keeping him as long as he offered him sex. “As long as I give you sex.” He said immediately the thought that passed through his mind. Sometimes it was he who had a foul mouth.
Jin just chuckled. “Well, it’s an important part of the deal.” he happily stated, biting Kazuya’s ear and growling like a little dog. “But…” he paused, thinking for a moment at what he was going to say. Maybe it wasn’t right because it would make him feel a little vulnerable in front of Kazuya and that was the last thing he wanted. “I would have liked to know you the normal way.” In the end, he took the risk to say his thoughts, even if he knew that if given a second chance, he would have done the same way. It was just a thought in the end.
“Well, it’s good to be dreaming.” Kazuya replied back and pulled away from Jin’s arms, now sitting straight, with his legs crossed and his hands grasping each other in his lap.
“I like dreaming.” Jin chuckled and drew his body closer to Kazuya. He raised his hand and traced a soft line on his back, starting from his hips, crawling up and circling his back, almost not touching his skin, just teasing and taunting. “What are your dreams for the future?” he asked, letting his curiosity get the better of him. But he couldn’t help it. His need of Kazuya was still huge and he desperately wanted to feed it, to make it go away. All of his efforts had been in vain until now and Jin realized that Kazuya was the only one who could help him. He didn’t want to let go, he didn’t want to separate from Kazuya. He’d rather kill the younger than have this.
Kazuya’s body stiffened as Jin caressed briefly his skin, making him shiver in pleasure. He closed his eyes and bit on his lips, his body arching a little. He felt those soft touches down in his loins and somehow it felt hard to breath. He liked it that way. And that’s when Jin brought him back to reality.
“My dreams?” Kazuya asked as in daze. “I don’t have any.” He simply answered, realizing that this was the truth. Somehow it felt empty. “Do you?” he then asked, glancing at Jin.
Jin seemed to be deep in his thoughts, his hand continuing the little game on Kazuya’s back. “Not really.” he finally answered, looking up to meet those brown orbs that had him hypnotized. “I don’t have dreams, I have goals.” He clarified after. “Dreams are for those who wish for something to happen. I take my life in my own hands and always get what I want. I don’t need dreams when I have reality.” He didn’t know why the only example he thought of in that moment was that he had obtained Kazuya’s body in a forceful but successful way, but it seemed to be the best for now. Not the fact that he had managed to completely change his whole life only through willpower, but the fact that Kazuya was now standing next to him.
The younger laughed, trying to shrug away that exciting sensation that Jin’s fingers offered his back. “But it is said that people often dream.” Kazuya said, completely aware that such a thing doesn’t apply to him. “Haven’t you found yourself day dreaming?”
“I don’t have time for that.” Jin slowly replied, as if he was trying to find his words. He lifted himself and moved to sit behind Kazuya, circling his waist with his hands and letting his chin rest on the younger’s shoulder. “But I wish I had.” he confessed, closing his eyes and breathing slowly.
Kazuya was too self-conscious all of a sudden. His body reacted to Jin’s closeness, tensing immediately while warmth was spreading all over him. He didn’t like this sensation that kind of overwhelmed him, realizing that this way he might come to enjoy his time with Jin, he might like to sleep with the man that had confined his freedom just for sex. “See? You’re dreaming.” He chuckled softly, letting his head fall on Jin’s. “Wishing is like dreaming, that’s what you said, right? By wishing time means that you’re dreaming of something to happen.” He added with a victorious tone. “There, JinJin, you’re dreaming even if you don’t acknowledge that.” He ended with a childish tone, not realizing that he had nicknamed the man.
Jin raised an inquiring eyebrow at the man in his arms, wondering when he had become ‘JinJin’. Well, he wasn’t one to complain about something like that so he smiled and laughed in Kazuya’s ear at the boy’s antics. “Maybe.” he whispered, his cheek slightly brushing Kazuya’s. “But then again, I wish to be president and to make a lot of sweet things legal but that’s never gonna happen, right?” he laughed again, his lips finding Kazuya’s neck and his tongue starting to lick it like it was suddenly drawn to that part of the younger’s body.
“No… stop.” Kazuya murmured, though he exposed his neck inviting. “I better go… classes.” He added, gulping as he felt his insides curl into a ball of fire. Had he ever been like this? Willing, lustful and wanting? He can’t remember.
Jin didn’t seem to hear him or if he did, he chose to ignore Kazuya. He smirked when he felt the younger responding to his advances and he let his tongue go around his neck, kissing his shoulders and climbing down on Kazuya’s back. His hand was busy teasing the front part of his body, caressing his chest with slow and inviting moves, not lowering itself more than his waist. He was still playing nice because he also knew that Kazuya had classes. He didn’t really care that much but he didn’t know the younger’s opinion about this matter so he decided to go slower than usual, letting the boy to decide if he wanted more through his body.
If the first impression was bad then maybe the second can be better.
But it wasn’t right to feel like this. Kazuya didn’t want to let himself feel like this, not when the desire was clouding his mind, making it foggy and only receptive to Jin. He shuddered as he felt the naughty tongue tease his skin, leaving hot traces behind. He wanted to lean, he wanted Jin to touch more but if he does so, then he’d lose himself in the lust. He’d give in once more to Jin. He grabbed the hand that kept on touching him and grasped it tightly. His mouth was dry and his breathing rasp. He moved away from Jin’s lips by leaning forward, letting him know that he had to stop otherwise he won’t be able to get to school.
“I can’t.” he said, looking back at Jin, his eyes darkened by passion. “I really need to go.” He continued, a hint of apologize in his voice. Kazuya licked his lips, realizing embarrassed that he had gotten hard. “Umm… sorry, but can you let me dress?” he asked with a plea in his eyes. “Alone?” he added, once more passing his tongue over his dry lips.
Jin sighed. He clenched his hand into Kazuya’s hair, bringing him closer and crushing his mouth on his, kissing him hard, the desire exploding from his every limb. He licked those inviting lips a few times before he drew back a little to look into his eyes. “Are you sure you don’t want a help with that?” he asked, pointing to Kazuya’s hardened member that seemed to disagree with the younger’s decision to stop.
Kazuya’s body was shouting yes, he needed help with everything Jin could help him, but what came out of his mouth wasn’t the same. “I’ll manage.” He said on a hoarse voice, his hands shaking a little as he had brought them to hold onto Jin during that kiss. He had never felt that weak and needy like he was now. In fact, he had never felt desire hitting him as hard as it was doing now, bursting inside of him and leaving burning traces that seemed to be like fireworks. “But… kiss me one more time.” Kazuya whispered, his eyes webbed by lust. “Just once.” He said clearly.
“Just once.” Jin chuckled and leaned over to catch those pink lips with his own, nibbling gently, grabbing them with his teeth only to let them go, not once using his tongue. The hand in Kazuya’s hair forced the younger to tilt his head and Jin stuck out his tongue to lick his lips, tracing a wet line on them and circling his mouth. He licked them like a puppy, looking into Kazuya’s eyes for a moment before letting his tongue enter the hot cave and bury itself in the sensation of pleasure. He shivered and Kazuya’s body trembled in his arms. He let the kiss go slow, Kazuya being the one who was leading it completely for the first time. It was somehow weird, Jin had to admit but he liked the sensation of submitting to Kazuya’s will, to follow his steps and let him order. He brought him even closer, gluing his body to Jin’s, their erections touching and making both of them release a guttural moan.
Kazuya was the one to pull back, hissing through his teeth as he detached himself completely from Jin. He was desperate for the warmth he had just run from, he was craving for Jin. But he had to stop otherwise he’d compromise himself. He wasn’t going to sleep with Jin because of his own desires, he’s to sleep with him because Jin wanted so. He wasn’t going to fool himself into believing… what? Kazuya closed his eyes as he tried to calm down his breath. His lips were still wet and wanting from the kiss and his eyes were full of desire. He pulled the sheet around him, covering his erection.
“Thanks.” He murmured as he looked down while biting his lower lips and with his cheeks flushed.
Oh, God, this boy was going to kill him soon. Jin groaned unhappy when Kazuya ran from him, fisting the sheets in his hand. Even so, he sighed and kissed him briefly before getting up. “I’ll take a shower in the other bath so call me if you need something. I’ll be back in fifteen minutes and then I’ll take you to school, okay?” he kissed him one more time, this time on his forehead, before turning his back to fetch some clothes and leave the room.
Kazuya sighed relieved the minute Jin left the room, now being able to think clear for once. He sat on the bed a few minutes, just thinking about things and coming to realization towards some. He didn’t like to feel like this around Jin, especially when the man had humiliated him enough for just one night. He should have brushed him off the moment they woke up, he should have run from him the moment he woke up! Not to cuddle with Jin, not to kiss him, not to yearn for him. After having his body violated like that, Kazuya should have left immediately. Yet he didn’t do it.
He got up from the bed and headed for the bathroom. He would take a quick shower before going to college, just to refresh himself. When he stepped into the shower and felt the water pouring down on him, he couldn’t help but feel gleeful. He turned his face towards the water, letting it be hit by thousand of warm droplets as if massaging it. Why didn’t he do it? Why didn’t he leave the moment his eyes sprang open and realized what had happened? He didn’t know. Maybe it was because of his friends, of his life he had built around him. He was afraid for them.
No!
It wasn’t like that. He knew that friends come and go, he was sure that it wasn’t because of them. Of course, he wouldn’t let them get hurt, but he was sure that they wouldn’t want him to be hurt so they would have eventually understood if Kazuya had really decided to flee from Jin, risking their lives. What crap! Kazuya laughed to himself, of course no one would understand. No one cared or loved him enough to do something like this.
Love?
Maybe this was the answer behind the reason he didn’t leave? Maybe he was searching for someone that could love him, that could show him that there might be something for him too? Someone that could give him a place to return, a warmth where he could cuddle without being shooed? Was he really searching for something like this? Maybe, yet he was sure that Jin wasn’t that person. Because he would take from Kazuya what he valued the most - freedom. Jin won’t held back from taking everything from him if that meant he would stay by his side; the younger had seen that very clear last night. He wasn’t afraid to lose everything as long as he had freedom. Yet Jin made him afraid in a way.
Kazuya leaned on the shower cabin, thinking of all he had come to realize. Could there really be a need as deep as the one for love inside his soul? Could he really be afraid that much of one more person that his mother?
Everything is possible, Kazuya concluded.
A knock was heard outside the room, but the sound of the water stopped every noise from coming inside the bathroom. A second knock and the door was slowly opened, Jin sneaking his head into the room, calling Kazuya’s name. He heard the sound of the shower and rolled his eyes when he realized that Kazuya had again forgotten to get out of the bathroom. He walked to the other door and knocked again but no answer came this time either. He was starting to get angry so he pushed open the door, walking inside and grinning to himself when he saw Kazuya’s naked form through the shower’s glass. He tip-toed, trying to not make any noise now that he was close enough for Kazuya to hear it. With one swift movement, he opened the shower cabin, the same smug grin pasted on his face.
“Kazu ~. ” he whined, a few drops of water hitting him in the face.
Surprised, Kazuya almost jumped and clutched onto the cabin’s doors, but he relaxed immediately when he saw Jin. No, he relaxed for a few moments, because his body tensed and he eyed the man warily. He had nothing to cover himself with, only the water to surround himself in the warm steam. “Fuck…” he uttered, lots of water entering his mouth. “Jin! You scared me!” he then added, touching the place where his heart was beating crazily, though not sure if it was because of the fright or because of Jin’s presence.
“Good.” Jin teasingly answered, stepping into the cabin and pinning Kazuya to the wall. His clothes were completely wet by now but it was a nice feeling, Jin concluded, rubbing his clothed body onto Kazuya’s naked one. He didn’t have patience for anything at all and the image of a wet Kazuya was so arousing that Jin found himself devouring the younger’s lips, not even remembering when he got this close. His hands had trapped Kazuya’s on the wall, keeping them above his head. His mouth was needy and his body screamed his desire and his deep wish. His member was already hard and Jin groaned into the kiss, wanting more friction between the two of them.
Kazuya was shocked by the sudden burst of passion, but he had no time to protest as Jin almost molested him against the wall. He moaned against his demanding lips and struggled a little against his fully dressed body, but giving up almost immediately, taken over by his own passion. He thrust his hips into Jin’s, lifting one of his legs, now his knee rubbing against Jin’s crotch. He bit onto his lower lip before taking his tongue and sucking it slowly, maddeningly. He threw his other leg around Jin’s waist, the other one still pressing against his lower part. Kazuya smirked before leaving his lips and tongue, beginning to move his hips up and down, rubbing their hardened parts in the movement. He bit onto his neck and then licked it teasingly before going up to his ear, licking and sucking his earlobe.
“Why…” he moaned as he began a faster pace of his hips, his need as great as Jin’s.
“I want you.” Jin simply stated. He grabbed Kazuya by his hips, lifting him in the air and making him to circle Jin’s waist with both of his legs. He tilted his neck, giving Kazuya more space to explore, feeling each burning touch electrifying him. He already felt at his peak so he hurried to unbutton his jeans and to lower them, leaving the pants to fall on his knees, not bothering to completely undress. His member was poking at Kazuya’s entrance, silently asking for permission even if he felt like he wasn’t going to last and that he’ll come only from Kazuya grinding his hips against Jin’s. He turned his head, kissing the younger again, his hands now gripping Kazuya’s ass and stretching his hole a little for better access.
The younger took a deep breath as he felt Jin so close to him and grabbed tighter onto him, his nails digging in his wet clothes, almost ripping them. He answered to Jin’s ravishing kiss, wanting to lose himself in the sweet and maddening taste, to lose his head before feeling the pain that would have to follow. He moaned in the kiss as if to urge Jin to move faster, to complete him sooner. Again, that feeling of not being right what was happening between the two of them controlled him, but the need and the passion were too strong. Even if he should stop now, he won’t do it. Somehow, he needed Jin deep inside him, he needed that man to drive him crazy, to take him over boundaries.
And Jin granted his wish, entering him with a slow movement, taking advantage of the fact that Kazuya was still a little loosened up from last night. Still, it wasn’t enough and his hole was tight, Jin forcing himself to take a deep breath and to stop in the middle. He looked at Kazuya and kissed his closed eyes. He was gritting his teeth so Jin slowly licked his lips, making him relax under his caress. Kazuya opened his mouth to let out a needy moan and Jin let his tongue slip into his mouth, kissing him slowly and sucking his tongue. Soon, Kazuya’s hips were starting to move against his cock and Jin groaned when his member entered even deeper in Kazuya. He took a deep breath and slowly pulled out and with a fast move, he entered him again. He left Kazuya’s lips and sucked his skin hard, leaving small hickeys all over his chest, neck and shoulders, while he moved in and out of Kazuya.
The younger tightened his grip on Jin, burying his fingers into Jin’s hair, his nails sometimes scratching his shoulders and leaving marks. He had problems breathing and he felt like his heart will run out of his chest, scared by the sensations that his body was living. He was moaning and panting hard and moving his hips along Jin’s cock, asking for him to move faster and also feeling the desire burning in Jin’s soul. It was somehow fulfilling to know that he isn’t the only one feeling that insane desire for release and it made Kazuya a little more confident in his moves, in satisfying his own desires and not caring about the other one and the money or drugs that he can get out of him, like he usually did. He arched his body when Jin started to fasten his movements, slamming his balls on Kazuya’s ass. He moaned hard when Jin moved him even higher on the cabin’s wall to get a better angle, Jin’s hands keeping him safe from falling while his own were still buried into the older’s hair. He pulled his hair, bringing his head for another kiss, their mouths violently brushing against each other and their teeth clashing.
Jin’s moves fastened again, being more rushed and the only thing on his mind was searching for that sweet spot of Kazuya that will make the younger fly higher. A loud moan confirmed Jin that he had found it and he thrust into Kazuya’s abused hole with more power. His hand found Kazuya’s cock and started to pump it in the same rhythm. He felt Kazuya’s walls tightening and he heard him coming with a grunt, Jin also following him after a few more moves. He was breathing hard and he could feel the younger’s heart beating as fast as his, both of them trying to calm themselves. Jin drew out of Kazuya, his semen sliding down on the boy’s legs only to be washed away with the pouring water.
The younger let himself slid limply in Jin’s arms which were still circled tightly around him, leaning his head on his shoulder, panting hardly. He felt once more weak, vulnerable and this was all because of Jin. Because of the man that did him in a shower’s cabin against a slippery wall with water pouring down on them. Maybe he was crazy, but he felt happy. Happy to be hold like that, happy to be done like that and happy to have a shoulder on which he could regain his breath after an awesome round of sex. He kissed Jin on the neck and made a move back, though Jin held him even closer, not wanting to let him go. He chuckled though the water muffled the sound.
“We have to close this damn shower.” He muttered, trying once again to move, but failing to do so as Jin didn’t even bunch a bit.
“No…” Jin answered, burying his face in the nape of Kazuya’s neck. The younger sighed but since the water kept on running and it began to annoy him, he had to push Jin just a little.
But even a little was too much for Jin as he tripped in his lowered pants, his grip still tight on Kazuya who tried to pull him back only to accelerate the fall. He slipped on the water, resulting on both of them hitting some parts of the shower cabin, before Kazuya slumped onto Jin gaining a groan from the pile of mess that was him. And the water was still pouring.
“Fuck!” Kazuya swore and rose up shakily, looking at Jin. “Are you okay?” he asked, touching his body in search for any sign of pain.
“I’m not okay!” Jin whined like a child. “I think I hit my head.” he said and tried to sit on his back to let the throbbing pain disappear but succeeding to hit his head again on the cabin. A scream that seemed more like a cry was heard and Jin cursed. “Well, fuck you too.” he growled annoyed, talking with the walls.
Kazuya chuckled at the sight, being considerate enough not to laugh whole-heartedly. He outstretched his hand to Jin, offering his help while his eyes were sparkling with glee. “Now, don’t get angry and act like a child.” Kazuya said to him with a smile. “Come on, get up!”
Jin pouted but still accepted Kazuya’s hand, sitting up and facing the younger. “But it huuuuurts.” Even so, he continued to whine, making big puppy eyes at Kazuya hoping that the boy will take care of him.
The younger sighed and approached Jin, carefully not to slip once again. He put his hand on Jin’s head, making him to bend until he reached it with his lips and placed a kiss upon it. It was wet and smelled of mint. Then Kazuya slipped his hand past Jin and turned off the water. Finally there was silence and both of them wet and kind of awkward. At least from Kazuya’s part.
“Better?” he asked the man, thinking he was dealing with a five years’ old kid, not with the man that had ruthlessly fucked him against the wall of a shower’s cabin.
“Much better.” Jin happily smiled and hugged Kazuya, crushing the boy in his arms.
“Maybe you’ll want to pull up your pants.” The younger said in the bear hug he was caught in. “Just so you don’t fall again.” He added with a soft chuckle. And I should get dressed and go to school, he thought in the same time, also realizing that he’d be wearing the same clothes as yesterday, a thing that will perk up once more Koki’s interest. If possible, he’d like to avoid that.
“Oh.” Jin blushed, feeling embarrassed. But that soon passed away like it never happened when Jin simply slipped out of his jeans, kicked them with his feet and took his shirt off. “They were wet.” he shrugged, now as naked as Kazuya. He then grinned and took the younger’s hand, dragging him to follow Jin out of the bathroom, also taking a big and fluffy towel on their way out, and stopping next to the bed and facing Kazuya again.
Kazuya was being led by Jin once again and he couldn’t fight back the comfortable feeling he had. It was like he was agreeing on being like this, it was like he was enjoying this. No, he really enjoyed it. He looked at Jin and saw excitement on his face, his grin was contagious as he felt his own lips curl into a smile, a genuine one.
“Only one?” he asked lightly glancing at the towel Jin had in hand.
“Why would we need more?” Jin laughed, wrapping the towel around them and gluing his body to Kazuya’s. “I like you being close to me.” he chuckled, his hands starting to massage Kazuya’s back with the towel, wiping the water off his body.
Kazuya joined Jin in his action, using the towel too on the man. “Just don’t get hard or I’ll never get to school.” He muttered as he passed a brushing hand over Jin’s ribs. Somehow, his remark felt like that of a lover - intimate and theirs to share. He shouldn’t feel that way but again, he shouldn’t feel many.
“I can’t promise you that.” Jin mumbled more to himself, looking at the floor, but aware that Kazuya could still hear him. “But I can promise that I’ll jerk myself off before I drive you to your college and I won’t bother you!” he raised his head and proudly announced.
Kazuya laughed aloud, throwing his head back as he had done so. He then looked at Jin with twinkling eyes. “Stupid.” He muttered and placed a light kiss on Jin’s lips, then he slipped away from the towel and Jin. “I need to borrow some of your clothes.” He said to Jin as he looked around for his.
“Check in that dresser. There should be something small enough for you.” Jin crossed his arms with a thoughtful face. His eyes examined Kazuya from toes to head, a grimace appearing on his face. “You’re too skinny, you need to eat more!” he declared, smacking Kazuya’s ass in a joke.
The younger jolted and looked teary at Jin. He stuck out his tongue with a frown before heading for the dresser Jin showed to him. He rummaged slowly through it, not wanting to make any more mess than it was already. He found some black pants which seemed good enough for him, so he quickly put them on, just to find them a tad larger. He saw a belt and quickly fastened it around his waist, now more satisfied with the result. Searching a little more, he stumbled on an interesting piece of cloth - it seemed to have a long black vest attached to it, while the shirt was simple and white. Though this was way too stylish for his school outfit, Kazuya’s eyes gleamed at it. He pulled it on and it was perfect! Even if he was skinny, the vest didn’t show any of this, more like covering what he was lacking and making him look even more handsome. He turned to Jin with a happy smile.
“I’m taking these!”
“They’re yours.” Jin chuckled in response, also making his way to the dresser. It was easier for him to find some clothes, Jin picking the first ones that came into his hands and that being a pair of jeans and a simple shirt with a naked chick on it. He glanced at the clock and saw that it was 7.30 a.m. “You have to be at school at 8, right?” he asked the younger.
Kazuya looked at him, the slight twinge of annoyance ruining his good mood. After all, he really disliked when someone knew his schedule, feeling like they were breathing in the back of his neck. The younger nodded in silence at Jin and took ahead of him, grabbing his forgotten socks too. He was already at the door, putting his shoes on and waiting for Jin. The man didn’t take long and joined him, both of them leaving the apartment.
He was quite surprised to see that Jin was taking him to school by motorcycle and he couldn’t lie about the fact he was feeling quite excited about this. He watched Jin mounting the bike and signaling him to hop on. Like a little child, Kazuya hurried to climb behind of him, holding tightly onto the older’s waist. He felt the motor rumble beneath the two of them and as they marched forward with a loud growl, the wind sweeping through his hair, Kazuya couldn’t stop from grinning. Riding a motorcycle, even behind someone, gave off a feeling of freedom.
A quarter of hour later, Jin parked in front of Kazuya’s college while the younger kept tugging on his clothes and rearranging his hair at every minute. He took one last look in the rear mirror, deciding he was looking great. He turned to Jin and a sudden silence fell over him. It was awkward enough for Kazuya to have spent a night and a morning like that, putting aside the feelings the man in front of him had managed to stir. He wasn’t sure what answers all those questions in his head had, but once he’d be alone, he’ll figure them out. After all, he was the best at this.
He kept looking at Jin somewhat unsure. If this were how things went when they met for their first date, how will the others be? Kazuya shuddered at the thought but nonetheless he managed to crack a smile.
“I’m leaving.”
He turned to leave but Jin’s words stopped him in his tracks.
“When can I see you again?”
Kazuya bit his tongue and looked thoughtfully at the man. “Tomorrow or maybe the day after tomorrow.” He answered thinking of his upcoming projects from college. “You have my number, right? Call me.” He added trying to smile, though he felt an iron ball in his stomach.
Even if Kazuya was feeling a little bit weird, Jin’s smile was genuinely happy and bigger than it ever was. “Take care of you and see you soon.” He waved at Kazuya as the younger turned his back at him, heading for the building. He didn’t move from his spot until the small figure disappeared from his sight.
*
Four.
Four days have passed and Kazuya hasn’t heard a thing from Jin. He was quite expecting the man to call immediately after what happened between them, but it seemed that he had been proven wrong. He had refused every invitation from his friends in case Jin would call him, making sure that his time was free. It wasn’t like he wanted to meet with Jin or anything, it was simply precaution. The man was serious about hurting his friends - or at least, he had managed to make him believe so - and Kazuya wasn’t one to take such risks on his friends’ expense. It was weird though. These silent four days, after Jin showed him how desperate he could be after his body, were very peculiar and gave the younger a feeling of anxiety and nervousness. He was all jumpy when someone would call him, looking immediately at his phone with a slight tremble in the fingers. But there would be relief and maybe disappointment when no unknown number would appear to be calling him.
And now he was pacing up and down through his apartment, having once more that uneasy feeling in his chest. He disliked being kept in the dark and he disliked even more feeling haunted and afraid. He didn’t even have his drugs, at least it would keep him occupied. Jin forgot to supply him, though these four days there have been no more nightmares. He stopped in front of his desk and looked at the neatly arranged things. He had done his projects, he had all his courses written down and almost memorized and he had been once more praised by the teacher for his involvement in different activities, exposing new ideas that have helped greatly. His life was nearly perfect - college was excellent, his friends were great too, he had an apartment all for himself - he lived freely and with enough for a decent life. Yet he had been disappointed in that and looked for more. This perfect life of his never protected him from his nightmares and never offered security. They could be gone in a blink of an eye, as Jin has showed it to him a few days ago. Not that Kazuya wasn’t aware of such thing, he knew very well the short length of such a happy life. He had seen it crumble before.
But Kazuya never wanted to be tied to a man like Jin. He never wished for something like this, he simply wanted to enjoy his life more and to forget. Now, Jin would never let him forget.
His phone rang, making Kazuya jump in the air before glancing at the highlighting mobile. His heart began to beat faster and his hands were already sweating. He licked his lips nervously before reaching for the phone and sighing in relief.
“Hello?” he said with a hoarse voice.
“Kameeeeee-chaaaaan!!” came the cheery voice of Junno making the younger smile.
“Yes, Junno?”
“Join us~” his friend chuckled. “We’re at this awesome pub you sure don’t want to miss!”
“I…” Kazuya wanted to say but was quickly interrupted.
“Come with us, you’re avoiding us for a while~” Junno whined and he felt guilty.
“Tell the turtle to move his skinny ass here quicker or I’m going to beat him!” another voice growled near Junno’s phone and Kazuya laughed.
“Okay.” He agreed, laughing even more when he heard the high-five of his friends. “Tell Ueda he’s going to buy me a drink for calling me a turtle!” he added before hanging up and getting prepared.
His friends were right, he had been avoiding them because of Jin. But seeing that the man hasn’t searched for him at all, he wasn’t going to barricade himself in the house waiting for a damn call. He may have agreed on going to him each time Jin said so, but that wasn’t a reason to refuse his friends’ invitation. And also, his friends were okay to hang out, right? Jin had said so that night.
Kazuya hummed before exiting the apartment, heading for the pub, its address already mailed by Junno through his cell phone. He reached it quite quickly, paid the taxi driver and entered the local. It sure was something Kazuya would have hated to miss. It was all shiny wood, dim lights and good music. The tables had that intimate feeling, being more further from each other, while its occupants were enjoying themselves with a pint of beer or some classy drinks. He glanced briefly at the long bar and saw its shiny shelves full with glittering bottles of alcohol. He saw that there were some stairs probably taking somewhere even more intimate as the dimmed sounds of laughter floated through the music. The pub had a very western feeling and he enjoyed it a lot. He looked left and right for his friends nowhere to be found, but as he looked up again he saw Maru’s head popping and signaling him to go up. He climbed the wooden stairs, surprised at their soft touch and found his friends sitting at a far cornered table, drinking and laughing at each other’s stories and stupidity. His face broke into a smile as he got closer, realizing how much he needed such things going on in his life.
“Glad to have your almighty presence within us!” Ueda said with a wicked gleam in his eyes.
“Shut up.” Kazuya replied and took a seat next to Maru with a huge grin plastered on his face. “Where’s my beer, Uebo?”
“Just about to arrive.” The other replied and smirked when a woman approached them with a tray containing five shots, a cut lemon, some salt and a full bottle with tequila. Kazuya whistled at the sight and looked surprised at the guys.
“Is someone’s birthday?” he asked jokingly.
“No, but it’s a rare thing having us gather like this.” Koki answered and maybe Kazuya sensed some bitterness behind the happy tone he had used. “Beside, Uebo’s paying!” he then grinned, earning himself a light punch from the man beside him.
The other three burst into laughter. Kazuya loved his friends the most, feeling warm and cozy to be among them. They began to talk about every bit of this and that, silence to be faked when Junno’s bad puns would barge in, only to have the tall man cling onto them, calling each one of them a meanie. They would just tease back. Everything was perfect, just like his life, but as all perfect things come to an end, so did Kazuya’s.
They didn’t notice the man approaching their table until his hand grabbed lightly Kazuya’s shoulder, making the boy look up with a smile that slowly faded when he saw the person.
“Jin…” he said softly, almost a whisper. His friends looked curious at the newcomer, only Koki to be focusing on Kazuya who had gone a bit paler.
“Hey!” Jin greeted Kazuya and bowed his head a little at his friends. He was smiling politely but his eyes had a weird glint in them, fortunately hidden by the club’s lights. “How have you been?” he then asked, not removing his hand from Kazuya’s shoulder.
Kazuya gulped and smiled once more. If he was going to act unnaturally, his friends would get suspicious. “I’ve been good, been busy with projects and co.” he answered Jin’s question.
“Yeah and he refused us each time we gathered up.” Junno interfered with a whiny voice. “But tonight we got lucky.” He then grinned, making his friends chuckle and Kazuya blush a little. There wasn’t a need to fill into so much details, he wanted to say, but refrained from doing so.
“Are you Kazuya’s friend too?” Ueda asked politely, looking at him with curiosity.
“Won’t you join us?” Maru added, making some free space for Jin to sit.
Jin looked inquiringly at Kazuya, trying to read his mind but failing. He could tell that the younger is a little afraid of what would Jin do in the presence of his friends so he tried to calm down Kazuya, squishing his shoulder a little at Maru’s question. But he had to admit that he wasn’t as innocent as he seemed to be and he had wanted to ask Kazuya some things. One of his questions had been answered immediately by Kazuya’s friends and Jin realized that the reason the younger hadn’t been out with his friends at all was him. Was he so afraid? It was true that Jin was still monitoring his every move and that’s how he knew that he’s at this pub but the older one still hoped that Kazuya would understand that he’s doing it for his own good.
He just wanted to protect him.
“Can I?” he asked instead, looking with puppy eyes at Kazuya and knowing that he can’t really refuse without some explanations to his friends that Jin was sure he wasn’t that willing to give.
Was Jin testing him? Kazuya asked himself. If he was, then he won’t give him any satisfaction. “Sure, why not?” he replied cheerfully. “The more, the merrier, right, guys?” he then said, back to his usual self before Jin’s arrival.
“Oh, by the way, he’s Jin.” Kazuya then introduced him to his friends, thinking for a second. “We met at a club two weeks ago and we… kinda hanged out after that.” He added with a silly smile. “Jin, they are Maru, Junno, Koki and Ueda.” He presented them in the order they were seated.
“Nice to meet you!” all four said at once, laughing at their synch. Kazuya too chuckled before he met Jin’s eyes. It seemed unnatural to see him among his friends and he knew that he had to put up his defenses again. He had to be careful at not getting drunk and also at what Jin was going to say. This night was another challenge to them.
Jin answered to their greeting and sat down. He quickly hit it off with them, laughing and joking like they have been best buddies since ever. Only Koki seemed to be a bit reserved, though his attitude changed slowly to his usual and rough self. Soon, another shot was brought for Jin and another bottle - vodka this time - accompanied it too. This time, Jin’s treat. They all cheered and Kazuya refrained from grimacing. He was amazed at Jin, seeing him blend with his friends, laughing and telling jokes or stories like nothing happened between the two of them, like he never threatened their lives to keep Kazuya beside him. He was also surprised at his friends’ quick approval of him, Ueda saying the most shocking thing.
“He seems like a good guy.” He hardly said that of anyone, because Ueda had a huge problem with trusting people, so for him each and everyone seemed bad or malicious to a certain degree.
Kazuya almost choked with his drink upon hearing him and began to cough slightly, Ueda’s hand patting and caressing his back gently, chuckling at the clumsy boy.
“Umm… he is.” The younger finally answered, wiping the spilt drink off his chin. He was the best liar, Kazuya concluded, but there seemed to be an even better one as he glanced once more at Jin, studying his antics, seeming almost normal. But he wasn’t and Kazuya knew it the best.
“I’m boooored~” said Junno out of the blue making everyone stare at him. “What?” he blinked sweetly, earning himself a whack in the head from Koki. “Baldie!” he stuck out his tongue at him, making everyone laugh.
“Then, let’s play something.” Ueda suggested, his eyes twinkling. “Or do you want to go home?” he added with a glare. Although Kazuya would have been happy to say he wants to do so, he shook his head in denial like the rest. “Good. Any ideas?”
Part II