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venting / steam
Do what you say you will.
Keep your promises.
Be honest, be kind, be thoughtful.
Forgive.
I said I was sorry and I meant it
I should've talked less and listened more
But I was truthful through and through.
Today I'm simply frustrated
Because my sheets were cold
I had dreams about bears coming in the windows
And the cat kept hitting me --
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dear stoner roomie
I like you, I really do. I like sharing food and don't mind if you help yourself now and again. But when you do this, you're supposed to either chip in or replace what you eat. I like that ( Read more... ) -
dear universe...
The universe has been giving me a big 'fuck you' for the past week or so. Maybe the past few months. I always do the right thing -- I'm generous, thoughtful, sweet and I go out of my way to do nice things for people -- but I just always get treated like shit. My roomies have been assholes to me for the past two weeks and I'm not sure why. If I' ( Read more... ) -
It makes me sick
I made a mistake... I trusted too much too quickly. But I really liked him and things were going so well. This wouldn't bother me so much if we hadn't slept together, which is what HE wanted. He pursued ME. And I really, really liked him and was really excited about where things were going. I had no indication that anything was even wrong. ( Read more... ) -
I miss you Brent.
I've been thinking about Brent a lot lately... at work I'll remember something funny he said or did.. and then I have problems reining in my concentration. I wonder if I've been just holding it back, holding it in since he died. Brent and I were not close, but we were starting to become friends. His sister is my best friend and his family is the ( Read more... ) -
Forever Young
This came on the radio today while I was at work.. It caught me so off guard I almost burst into tears.
I miss you, Brent. I miss you so much. I want you to come back so badly.
Let's dance in style
Let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?
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+ // -
Since moving....
bad ---good +++no money
no job
no boyfriend
no friends
busted anklen/a
This was such a huge mistake; I can't even begin to say how big. I've never felt so alone or worthless in my life. -
oh poor girard
Walking back from the train station on Girard is always interesting. The surrounding neighborhood is emerging from its former seediness, business by blossoming business. Still the inhabitants are living memories of the trash that was once littered up and down the avenue. The sidewalks are as broken as the people who walk on them.
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how many more?
Brent - 5/8/2010
Junior - 9/20/2010
Steve - 10/1/2010
I don't understand why people think that suicide is the answer.
I don't understand how much it hurts to be that desperate
I don't know how to help.
So much gone in so little time......
To the Allens, Manharts, and Earlys... I am so sorry.
All of my love.
