APH: For Dignity Has No Price [1/6]

[candelaria]

Title: For Dignity Has No Price [1/6]
Pairing: Portugal/England, mentions of Austria/Hungary and Spain/Portugal (America/England, Spain/Romano, France/the world, Portugal+Spain and other pairings to be added)
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Gratuitous sex between two Empires orz
Timeline: 1890 - The British Ultimatum/Anglo-Portuguese Crisis/Scramble for

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[sakuratsukikage]

!!!!!!

Why am I at work, you're torturing me. This is . . . amazing.

I will return!

[sakuratsukikage]

He just doesn't care as much about those. XD The truth. Oh, man, me too! England all bristly, being all, "Let me pass, you bloody Frog--both of you, I'll kick your arse all over again, Spain, just see if I don't--it's none of your bloody business what's going on between us--" and France going all "As usual, you are a brute barbarian, Angleterre. You have hurt him, and I see no reason why he would want to see you." While Spain is angry and vocal and glowering. Oh--oh, man. That really makes a terrible amount of sense. I mean, most revolutionary government probably do a lot of pretty awful roughing up of their country at first, as the nation is pulled in several different directions at once. I can only imagine how torn he must have been, you know? Oh, man. I--I can just imagine that. Oh . . . oh, Portugal. Both brothers really, around that time. But just Portugal all short-haired and bruised and probably well on his way to a breakdown--oh, man. (GAH, YES. I mean, England is far from heartless--I feel like he'd have felt

[candelaria]

If he did he wouldn't be getting beat up half as often. |D Spain would probably slam the door in his face, but with a smile on, because Spain is always smiling. He learnt that from his brother. England would be so offended, despite being the source of the problem. France would probably incite him further though, being France. Seriously, Port had about...I think it was 38 prime ministers between 1910 - 1926. He was an absolute MESS. And Spain started falling apart too with the Spanish-American wars and his own Civil War and yes, brothers. ;A; And probably for the first time in forever Port would let Spain give him a hug and let him cry it out. (YES, because he probably thought he'd forget about it and forgive him if he delicately never brought it up again. BUT THE DAMAGE WAS DONE. OH ENGLAND

[sakuratsukikage]

It's true. But sometimes I wonder if that's fun for him. That's true. Spain does always smile--I was forgetting. Spain is actually quite difficult for me. But oh, boys. England would be ENRAGED. And hurt. But . . . yeah. Oh, man. Wow. That's pretty awful. No wonder they sort of clung to each other. Poor boys. (Oh, man, he totally did. That's how England's emotion-fail works. AAAH GOD. Oh, England, indeed

[candelaria]

France, a bit of a masochist? Of course~ lol. I love that Spain is always :DDD pretty much, but he was quite a cruel bastard back in the day, both him and Portugal, and it's quite frightening to imagine them both smiling throughout it all. |D I can just see England threatening to start a war with them over it. HE'D WIN, NATURALLY. And a little broken-hearted yes. I think with Spain and Portugal, they kind of come back together as a family when things go wrong, though that's more as people than as nations

[sakuratsukikage]

Indeed, yes. XD Or at least worth it. Adds to the spice of the whole thing. Spain is so hard for me to get a handle on, haha. Oh, man, it's true, though. Yeah, definitely. Both furious, and so depressed over it, but he'd never admit it, he isn't broken-hearted, not him . . . . *nods* Well, that sort of fits too--sentiment between the two peoples of the countries, rather than politically, you know?

*nods* It really is almost unhealthy, in that he pours so much of himself into it without even really expecting much back. The whole thing was fine while things were great between them, but when England started pulling the asshole routine . . . then it got to be a problem, for sure. Oh, Portugal. You got yourself so hurt there. But I like to think that their . . . friendship is stronger than all the rest of it? Because . . . yes. That loneliness and the sense of comfort there. And they just enjoy each other. THAT CLUELESS ENGLISHMAN IS SURELY JUST TAKING ADVANTAGE OF HIS BIG BROTHER AND IS A GENERAL OFFENSE TO SPAIN'S BETTER

[candelaria]

He's been beat up so often he no longer feels it. XD I find Spain to be...okay for me as a character, writing wise. Just a bit thick and obsessed with tomatoes, Romano and his big brother haha. England's too tsundere to admit ANYTHING, it's where half his problems start. :/ I think nations are individuals, as well as countries. Even if their people don't always get along it doesn't mean they can't.

Now that's love for you. England just has a habit of pulling the asshole routine, he likes being on top, being in the same league as the world powers even if he's not quite one anymore. By contrast these days Port is one of the poorest nations in Western Europe. I just have this scene in my head with Port and America in the Azores and after having too much to drink Port tells America to be careful around England, because he's lovely and all but he tends to dump nations and move on to better ones once they have nothing more to offer him. Port was great like America once too after all. Because drunk!Port is blatantly obvious to the point of

[sakuratsukikage]

Yes, he's immune. XD I can see it--I need to work on him, and I'll get him. Half? :/ Oh, England. Oh, yes, definitely--I mean, I think they have their own personalities and thoughts and emotions. I just also enjoy stretching the metaphor as far as I possibly can, you know? XD

It's really true. Portugal is really capable of deep loyalty, I think. It's true! He does have a thing about being in at the top of the pile (and honestly, despite not being an empire anymore he's doing a pretty good job of staying up there). It seems like these days Port's decided to forget wealth and influence for a bit and worry about other things. Ohhh, wow. That sounds . . . really pretty powerful, honestly. Poor Portugal, because you know he still loves him, even. And it's not necessarily that I think England would, because he's changed, but . . . there's no reason for Portugal to think that, necessarily. Oh, yeah, for sure. I can just see that. Totally. Oh, definitely! LOL YES YES HE SHOULD

[candelaria]

I think I might get him if I write him instead of Portugal, or at least give him a bigger role to play haha. XD Well...three quarters of them, or maybe...all. :||| ;alsdk. The way I see it, they're pretty much a citizen of their nation only...they ARE the nation haha. Stretch that metaphor all the way~

So deep that he'd even stick it out with England and not go to war with him. Though I hear the Ports are STILL bitter about the Pink Map. >> England's ego inflated quite a bit during his Empire days and I don't think it's quite shrunk yet tbh haha. You have to admit he's adaptable! XD Industrial Revolution ftw. I think Port's concentrating on all those years he missed out on while under a dictatorship. He's taking it easy for a while. |D Port is a poet at heart after all. He gets deep meanings and symbolism and all that haha. He loves him all the more for being so confident and powerful and happy, but he still thinks its a good idea to warn America just in case. There's a reason England has a reputation for being unreliable. There's

[sakuratsukikage]

Yeah, I think practice is the key. Well, yes! I see it similarly, I guess. Sort of . . . I don't know. The soul of the nation, in a way. Or something. But they just see themselves as being normal.

Yeah, seriously! But still, he buried that bitterness and kept their alliance going. Oh, England. I don't think so, either. He certainly is! He's sort of a badass that way. Oh, Port. I think so, too. He needs a break, and he's been through enough lately to mellow him out. Oh, yes, definitely. That's completely how I've been writing him. It's true; I think so. Oh, England--it's the truth. XD Awwww. Yes. IT IS. OH SPAIN INDEED.

It's true! He doesn't come off like that at all at first, but it's honestly the case. XD HE TOTALLY WILL, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? (He's always been repressed. It's possibly only getting worse, though. Ahahahahaha, yes. Yes, he would. But he'd let it go, not even tease him too badly. Oh, god, England, yes. XDDD)

[sakuratsukikage]

And the way they curl up together, after, this:

Portugal’s head is tucked under his chin, curled up with his legs dangling over the side, eyes closed even though he cradled the decanter of wine, cold crystal against his skin, to his chest. Too lazy to get up and find the glass that England had, which most probably rolled under the armchair, they share the bottle instead

[candelaria]

a;lskd;lkj like I said, cuddlers. And that part was fun because Portugal's taller than England, so to have him sprawled all over his lap is no easy feat. And yet they still manage to find a comfortable position, drink wine and generally be all lovey with each other, hahah. And saudade. It's the most amazing word ever because England can't turn it ENGLISH. It's entirely Portugal and indescribable. I read that Portuguese songs about 'saudade' aren't perfect unless they can reduce the audience to tears. X)

England was one of the Greater Empires during that time period. I can see how Portugal would feel inferior. He only maps Africa and all, and in the end gets a small claim, only to learn he's insignificant and in the way in the grand scheme of things. I really hated myself for doing that to him, because now he feels filthy and used and humiliated, by England of all people, and he can't believe he just had some amazing sex and it turned out England just wanted him all soft and more willing to please.

But god how he loves. He forgives

[sakuratsukikage]

Yessss, and they're both such adorable cuddlers. I know! It was just the most awesome, cutest image, taller Portugal all over England like that and, oh god, the loveyness was wonderful and sweet and so touching and heartbreaking based on the rest of it. It just broke my heart a little for Portugal, because he's muttering about how deeply he longs for England and England's . . . thinking about how he's going to do this to him (that being said, I loved how sympathetic and understandable you made England's position here; I just loved it; it blew me away). It's true, it's so perfectly completely Portugal and just, yes, oh man (I want to hear one of them now

[candelaria]

Poor England, all the people he loves eventually grow taller than him. XD Though Portugal the country isn't that big, it's quite long vertically so that's why I imagined him to be rather lanky. Though England's never had as much problem with his height like he had with America, because his waifu has always been taller than him. X) Portugal really missed him during the scramble for Africa, he always misses him when he's away for a long time really. I think they're both the type of people that can't be alone for too long. And England just... he never considers the other party's feelings until it's too late, I swear

[sakuratsukikage]

ahaha, that's true. I always imagined him as rather lanky myself. Yeah, England was the young one trying to impress with Portugal, rather than sort of the other way around, like it turned into with America. It's true . . . unfortunately for England, he tends to make it happen for himself. That's really true. He's so emotionally repressed that it's difficult enough for him to admit to his own feelings, let alone analyze those of others.

Yeah, exactly. He felt like they were something special and that sex was how they both expressed that most completely, and then it seemed like England just considered sex something extra thrown in with the wine that he wanted to get a little more of before betraying him. Not that that's how England thinks, but . . . England, you're very bad at seeming not like a jerk.

That makes complete sense! That he'd give England his love because of England's attention and recognition, just . . . yes. Oh god. WWI was already awkward in my head--it just got more so.

Oooooh, that is really exciting!

[candelaria]

Lanky and Iberian and handsome. ;) Funny how what goes around comes around. I can just see Portugal observing how America tries to impress England and remarks something like 'ah Inglaterra, remember when you used to be like that?' And England would be all 'STFU PORT, STOP LYING' lol. Yeah, he really does. He tries to keep them close, then he thinks he can do whatever he wants and the results are just...awful. Everyone gets hurt in the end. :< I blame his childhood and his brothers constantly beating on him