work sucks ...I was cleaning out my old yahoo emails and stumbled on to the user and password to this thing...ha i have no friends... my have things changed, im engaged, 31 and still do what i do....im way way too old for this thing now...maybe its time for a new screen name....i catch the young ones in my office hooked on "my space"...i tell them ( Read more... )

...havent been here in awhile...seeking and meeting with potential 'douche bags' / employers...got a new place in the Design District...seeing a great stable, supportive, attractive, cuban woman, not bad for a punk ass Corean kid from NY...been surfing and playing ball more often...C quit on his douchebag boss, soon enough bro....sis set the date ( Read more... )

..these online things have been getting wide spread attention...whatever ( Read more... )

...'invested' 3 grand this weekend in NYC, funny i have never written a check out for that much before, that was the last bit a buddy needed for a 100 grand down payment for a rentable building in Brooklyn..hes got balls i wish him luck....funny the next day my sister won 2 grand at the casino, is that an omen fro me........ the subways are going ( Read more... )

...just cruising at work today, until i leave for Home tonight...B wrote me an e-mail about meeting up??, J called out of the blue from a club, n's been calling me quite often?!?, i talk to M once and a while, and A called out of the blue last night....what gives with all of these random contacts with women 'friends' from my past???...when it rains ( Read more... )

...im in and out of moody episodes lately, the woman i share an office is annoying only in person, the other woman who i loath always joins us for lunch, i live in a place where i feel more alienated than a stranger in nyc, ive exhausted every website 'surfing' at work, AA is sickeningly addictive, it just proves how maladjusted asians are or, i am ( Read more... )

meander and drift
lost every excuse to be concerned with frivolous things, maybe time away would help, the most invigorating event this week was a headphoned subway ride in nYc...i need to get lost in the work but its' diverted my attention...i take no pride in acting like i care, not like they pay me enough anyway............

-journal entry 032703 ( Read more... )

'resistant witness'
-memory crutch
-rules of engagement
-exchanged glances
-stolen touches
-resentful orders

these event occurred on all levels and at various scales this past week....in the end, nothing but myself

..woah saw "the hours" by myself last weekend, i think i was the only hetero-male in the theather...whatever...it was an incredibly sad and amazing film...walked out of the theater, it was dark and rainy...had MacDonalds and walked home in the rain...stayed cooped up in the apt. and made some models...that was the extent of the weekend...