I have a very deep fear that there the amount of pain I can endure is limitless. I am shockingly resilient and a lot of people find that inspirational. I've spent most of my life telling people I'll be fine, that I AM quite resilient with some underlying notion of pride. But now, I think of it as a bit of a weakness. If nothing breaks me fully, ( Read more... )

Ohey guys. Check it out! I'm alive! w00t ( Read more... )

Oh for fuck sake ( Read more... )

I get really annoyed with my dreams sometimes. Last night I had a dream that left me feeling simultaneously hopeful and rejected. It reminded me again that I'm a fool and that I seem so desperate. I like being able to convince myself that I'm okay with things one way or the other, but I get angry when I dream about it and I start to think that ( Read more... )

Hooray for Boston! I begged for 3 weeks to get this shift off so I could come and they actually gave it to me! (Although when I was working last night, two managers asked me if I could work it anyway. You silly-heads, the weekend overnights are essentially MY shifts now. It's no longer that they need "overnighters." Now they need "someone to work ( Read more... )

Dear Alyssa,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gyx9c9cUng

Love,
Marie

What was the worst part of the last two days ( Read more... )

I can feel fall closing in on me.

I am cold and tired and worn.

It's always very exciting to me when I notice that people are following my journal that I don't know. It's like, "oh my god! my life is interesting ( Read more... )

This one is almost a year old at this point, but it's so long and crazy that I've been putting off writing it forevarr.

I'm a waitress at in a (5!!) college town at a sweetass little all-night diner.

Last summer a worked ever Sunday overnight. These shifts were slow and mostly uneventful, but I do still have this sweet gem.

For a month or so, we ( Read more... )