Comments | arcadia_2005: I am made of fail!

arcadia_2005

I am made of fail!

Mar 28, 2013 09:39

As i get older i am starting to accept the fact that i will never be a confident person. It's something i've always struggled with. I feel inadequate; dumb; and a whole of other words that if i continue to type them out will result in me crying & i have to leave for work in a few minutes or another thing i'll be will be LATE! And blotchy-faced ( Read more... )

Comments 5

maldeluxx March 28 2013, 17:06:17 UTC

*HUGS* :(

dravenreborn March 31 2013, 05:04:29 UTC

Whoa! Sounds like you have a similar Raging Bitch of an Inner Critic that I do. So sorry you feel this way Penny. :/

arcadia_2005 April 1 2013, 04:27:31 UTC

Oh Lisa--that inner bitch is only getting more & more vicious with age. :-( Knows exactly how to make me cry in less than a heartbeat. Sadly i'm not just saying that or exagurating--every word is true. I think she was doing a victory dance after this past Saturday where i knew it would bad-->i worked in the cash office that day...all alone, with nothing or nobody but my thoughts...that was the topper of a string of particularily bad days i've had. Worst ones that i can remember since maybe high school. One day i drove to work, but sat for awhile in the parking lot waiting to get my composure & for the first time, actually seriously gave consideration to skipping out on it. Instead just hitting the highway & driving until i don't know when. Today has been better. Only 1 or 2 tears escaped & that was only moments ago. But to be honest with you--i'm starting to get concerned. I honestly don't know WHY i think i deserve the beating i constantly give myself. But I seem powerless to stop it. Reading this back now, it really sounds more ( ... )

dravenreborn April 1 2013, 04:39:01 UTC

I really do understand, and I TOO know that I don't really deserve the beatings I give myself. I mean, I wouldn't let ANYONE else treat me that way. *HUGS* Hang in there hun, and go out of your way to give yourself days to feel GOOD about yourself,....tell your inner critic to piss off.

quiet_tammy April 5 2013, 00:23:09 UTC

hun you are in no way dumb you are very smart you have more confidence then you relize you are an amazing beautiful woman :) hugs