I do not feel right.

I don't know why.

I just know that I don't.

I feel kind of fucked up. It's like a sort of odd.... sense of  wrongness that I can't see to shake.

Something is wrong, but I don't know what.

I have no freaking idea what it is that's bothering me, really. Besides you know my life sucking all in all.

But if that's what it is, why doesn't ( Read more... )

Okay I'm over drawn in the bank, and yet I cannot think of ONE logical reason why I AM. It pisses me freaking off. A lot. It vexes the ever loving freaking crap out of me. I did all the damn calculations SEVERAL damn times, and everything added up ( Read more... )

Mom has been in the hospital for a day or two, doctor before said she had pneumonia. Just got word a few moments ago that she was swine flu.

This is not good news. I do not feel well at all now ( Read more... )

It's strange.... last couple of days I have just felt extremely odd at times..... Like something wasn't quite right but I had no idea what it was.

Almost like I was trying to remember something, and it was on the edge of consciousness.... almost like it was something in water, and I grabbed it, had ahold of it by my fingertips, and then it slipped ( Read more... )

I'm going to town tomorrow. I dislike doing this a reasonable amount but I have things I need to do kind of.

Which are as follows: Get packaging and send Joker the pc tablet I told her I would. Try and see if they have any copies of that new fallout with the expansions at gamestop. Pick up a decent eraser for use in drawing I'm planning on taking up ( Read more... )

Wow I'm stoned. Fucking sedative. Honestly I hate this feeling. This sort of fog clouding my senses and my mind making it hard to think straight, like this cloud trying to steal my mind or my me away from me like.

I can't imagine why anyone would want to actually to make themselves feel this way as a form of recreation.

I kind of like my thoughts ( Read more... )

I really don't know. I really doubt this is going to go well, but I feel  that I should say something on the matter.

This is really not going to go well for anyone I think.... like it's just going to end in disaster for all. If not now then fairly damn soon. I really dislike situations like this coming up.

I mean I'm used to things going wrong all ( Read more... )

Now I feel all fucking weird. Not sure what it is.... like I don't know what I wanna do even for this moment really..... This odd feeling of offness like.... like something is amiss. Somethings missing or out of place and I can't figure out what it is.

What in the hell is it?

Yay! I'm depressed cause I'm thinking about how much I am not happy with my life.

I honestly wonder. It's all I ever seen to do. It's like my life's purpose is to fail time after time. Like maybe I'm a posterboy of what not to do in life, so people can look at me as an example of what not to do. Or maybe it's like I'm here so people can be down and look upon my life and feel better, "At least I'm not that poor, unlucky son of a ( Read more... )