what is it you want to change?

[aquandrian]

Inadequacy and inferiority.

I've never actually felt inferior to the writers I admire. Which must say a hell of a lot about my arrogance and delusions of grandeur, I realise, but let's not go there right now.

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[daisydumont]

i understand better now what you mean. i still haven't studied his lyrics, so i haven't seen the brilliance yet (am still stuck in liking just the sound of him).

BUT i have experienced this kind of thing, not usually with published writers/lyricists, but with (let's say) an lj friend who writes in a way i know i could but i'm just not as good as that. it's because i recognize something in their writing and respond at once and am *almost* there maybe, but am lacking something. i usually end up feeling jealous and having to fight that in order to be friends.

i don't feel that with you, btw, because we're very different in the way we write. i think you write better than i do, but it doesn't bother me. i just celebrate the difference!

[aquandrian]

Yeah, I'm like that with all the writers I know on LJ ... loving or at least tolerating the difference and learning from the ones I worship.

Which is why this reaction to Corgan has just knocked me right around.

No worries. I'll get over it. Or bloody get better.

[aquandrian]

That is some gorgeous classic fantasy psychedelic imagery right there ...

Yeah, I'm glad you said that. It's been something I've always repeated to myself over the years, "dri, your writing is just as valid and important as anyone else's, don't let anyone intimidate you." Which, as I said to Vicki, this Corgan reaction shocked and upset me.

But sokay, I'm over it now. Cos you reminded me of that mantra. And, hey, Corgan's going to make me a better writer. I just know it. :p