In other news I am too sad to turn on my SAD lamp.

[apiphile]

today i went to a party at a mental hospital which was a lot less fun than hollywood has led me to believe but did also feature vol au vents, principally because i bought them, and i had a spinach muffin for lunch, and everything is unbelievably difficult and i want to die.

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[wolfy_writing]

Sorry everything feels so shitty.

You and I are very different people. Being all "I'm a terrible person" would make sadness much worse for me.

Weird pub lady! I hope some of that remorse leads to her knowing better and not acting like that next time.

I don't think I've ever had a glittery bath. My current place has an epic bathtub, and I ordered fancy bath stuff, but it's more nice-smelling hippie bath stuff, rather than glittery or blue. (I am buying fancy foresty hilariously over-gendered soap.)

I'd postpone editing until you can muster up the will to run the SAD lamp.

[apiphile]

Well, it is a matter of strength/weakness. Terrible people are strong people.

I RECOMMEND GLITTER BATHS. I mean, not if you ever want to NOT be covered in glitter again for the rest of your life...

[wolfy_writing]

Ah. And considering how people have treated you, I can see how "Strong enough to control whether they can do that again or not" would be a big thing.

I WANT GLITTER BATHS!

[apiphile]

find craft glitter dust
put in bath
become god

i think that's roughly how it works.

(i have been drinking glitter in an attempt to fight off the "my brain is an actual slug" level of depression but instead i managed to drop soup all over myself, the floor, and the table, and was then too sad to do anything about it! WHAT A SUCCESSFUL ADULT].

[tsuki_no_bara]

i love that someone on the train lost his mind over your shoes. i mean, of course he did. they're gold and they light up! but that woman in line for the bathroom was so bizarre. hopefully she'll learn to maybe keep her mouth shut next time.

yay for getting your blood drawn early, tho.

i hope things get less difficult. (if not all of them, at least some of them.) after today the days get longer, which is nice.

[apiphile]

if she even remembers being that stupid... i suspect drunk may play a part in her decision to say half of that.

longer days will certainly help but these couple of weeks look set to be destructively horrible. at least work will function as a distraction.

[kat_lair]

Hello! I am currently in Finland and squiffy from glögi, but I have dropped by to say hello, and that I have been catching up and skim reading your posts. I'm sorry it doesn't exactly seem like smooth sailing for you but every time you post about good things I smile and wish you more of those! Particularly for the holiday season which I hope will relaxing. <3

[apiphile]

well i too will be able to ensquiff myself on glögg* come the 24th/25th so that's a start.

* SWEDEN STILL LOVES YOU, FINN

[kat_lair]

As much as Norway does?

[apiphile]

ONly fucking NORWEGIANS would think a mountain is the best present ever oh my god*

* except my norwegian aunt used to give me pretty awesome, if very weird, presents.