Love's Sorrow Chapter 19

Mar 31, 2012 21:36

Title: Love's Sorrow
Author: aoi_jihyo
Beta: shine_xd
Length: 19/20
Pairing: Yoosu, jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance/Drama
Rating: R
Warning: M-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?

Wasn't it?



The news was received from Mr. and Mrs. Kim was not good. They didn’t agree with Jaejoong and Yoochun getting a divorce, but the other two men weren’t looking for their approval. Jaejoong didn’t want to see anyone, yeah, he let Yoochun go, but that didn’t mean that he wasn’t sad about it. He didn’t want to see anyone because of not only his sadness and his humiliation, but he also didn’t want to ruin and spoil the happiness that Yoochun and his brother were feeling because of their baby, plus he didn’t want to think of what their lives would be if they had a baby themselves. That’s why he decided to just keep himself busy with other things. It was really depressing that he didn’t have any friends to go out with, but he didn’t need any friend to have fun, did he?

He felt embarrassed when thinking about that boy, but yet again, he couldn’t find himself feeling regretful. At the moment the only thing that he could do was think about the pleasurable feeling and the idea of not feeling it again.

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Junsu walked inside the new apartment. Yoochun had agree on buying a new place for them to live while things were settle down, another thing Mr. and Mrs. Kim were against of, but again, the boys were not about to listen to them.

Junsu was getting use to the idea of having Yoochun with him, the man was all to himself and that was a feeling, Junsu thought, he could not get tired of. Junsu was selfish but that was nothing new, he had gotten over the fact already.

That day was really special for both men; they were on their way to the hospital. This was the first time after that day, when he visited the clinic to know about his pregnancy, that he was going to have a checkup.

“Yoochun,” spoke Junsu. They were inside Yoochun’s car whose was riding at a reasonable speed, that because Junsu almost freaked out when he accelerated. The mentioned looked at Junsu for a second.

“What is it?” he asked.

“Are you sure you want to do this?” The older man looked back again, but he was driving so he turned his head to the front right away.

“What are you talking about?” Junsu landed his left hand over Yoochun’s right one.

“I mean-this, being with me and divorcing Jaejoong hyung, are you sure you want to do this?” Yoochun could understand what Junsu mean; there were times he would ask the same question to himself.

“Junsu,” he said sweetly. “I’m sure of it, I love you and I want to be with you.”

Junsu thought for a second. “Why are you so changed, I mean, you already told me that you love me, but I don’t know-It’s just, you talk so nice to me now and the way you act, it’s weird. Not that I mind, I like it, but-”

Yoochun smiled. “I get what you mean, but I had always been like this, a nice, really cool, person, but I hated you,” Junsu tensed. “There is no reason on lying. I hated you so much, then I had that desired, that lust for your body,” Junsu blushed. “Then, you were fine, I didn’t hate you anymore, but I couldn’t just act as if everything was fine. And then,” he looked at Junsu. “I fell in love.” Junsu smiled as he nodded.

“I wonder when you fell in love with me; it’s hard to believe you did.”

“Isn’t it? I don’t know, I also don’t remember, but I just did. I actually think that it’s really easy to fall for you, when you are not being a whiny brat.”

Junsu frowned. “Oh, thank you, I guess.”

Soon they were sitting in front of the doctor’s desk. The man looked at them with a harsh frown on his face. “It had been a long time, Mr. Kim,” the doctor wasn’t happy knowing that Junsu hasn’t been coming to check on the baby that was for sure. “Well, first we’ll go check on the fetus,” he said as he stood up.

They moved to another room, where the nurse began passing that machine over his stomach. It was really frustrating; the woman was simply nodding without saying a thing. Junsu sighed. “Is everything okay?” he asked.

“Yes, everything is fine. Now would you like to know the sex?” Junsu shook his head while Yoochun nodded. They looked at each other and laughed.

“I guess we don’t,” said Yoochun.

“Then we’ll leave it as a surprise.”

After Junsu got ready they went back to the doctor’s office. “Since you are already six months into the pregnancy,” he said. “We’ll give you some things to guarantee the fetus’ health. Exercise is also really important.”

He went on talking about all the things that Junsu needed to do in the last three months of his pregnancy. The couple were really paying attention; they wanted to know everything about their child.

After the appointment at the hospital the two men went to the mall, they needed to buy a few things for their new apartment. “I never thought I would be here buying things for our apartment,” said Junsu in a cheerful voice.

Yoochun smiled, Junsu was really happy. “Now that we are here we can buy baby cloths and some other furniture, you know, for his room.” It was truly really nice for them to talk about those types of things.

“That’s going to be great,” he jumped in excitement. “We can start decorating the baby’s room. Can we buy some paint and some, wait, but we don’t know the sex,” he pouted. “What about purple, I like purple, or green, or orange, or yellow, or-”

“Purple sounds good,” interrupted the older man.

Junsu smiled. “Yes, purple is good!” Junsu was acting like a little kid; every time they would see some cute decorations for the room he would get really excited.

Yoochun sighed, this time it wasn’t a sigh of tiredness, or sadness, even though he was still afraid that their happy little world was going to be pop out at any second. He realized that there was no sense on looking at the past. He was going to be happy with Junsu and their baby. Jaejoong was going to find someone better, someone for him, and he then was going to be happy. He shook his head to keep those thoughts away for a second so he could concentrate on his “boyfriend” and their baby.

Junsu smiled lovingly and so did he. They entwined hands and kept on talking and talking.

It was late once they came back home. Junsu was the first one to walk in and almost jump in surprise. “Hyung,” he stopped.

Inside their apartment Jaejoong was waiting for them. The older one smiled but did not stand up from his seat. Junsu and Yoochun walked inside and sat on the sofa opposite to the one Jaejoong was sitting on.

“How did you?” asked Yoochun.

“Dad gave me the key,” at that moment he handed the key back. “I don’t pretend to keep it,” he said looking around as he bit his lips. “Actually, I just came to bid good-bye.”

Junsu frowned. “Good bye?”

Jaejoong nodded. “Yes, after all the things that had happened I think it will be the best if I go away for some time.”

“Where are you going?”

“I will go to Japan first. After that I might travel some time, and then I will go back to Japan.”

Jaejoong had always liked Japan, he wanted to spend some time in peace and he knew that there was the best place to do so.

“But,” Junsu didn’t know what to say, he wanted Jaejoong to be happy, but he didn’t want to make him go so far away all because of him.

“I will be fine,” smiled the man. “I wanted to see you before I go.”

They didn’t have many things to talk about, it was awkward, and so Jaejoong was gone in a few minutes. Junsu and Yoochun didn’t want anything to happen to the man, the day they couldn’t find him was without a doubt a hard day on the entire family.

It was some time after Jaejoong left, that the couple began organizing the things that they bought. The only think that both wanted was to go to sleep. It wasn’t really late, but after a tiring day, Junsu simply wanted to rest his swollen feet.

“I also think it’s the best,” said Yoochun. Both men were already on bed by then.

Junsu nodded. “I hope he does find the peace he is looking for. Maybe he can even find someone for him,” he giggled.

But what if…

The thought came to him without any warning; he needed to ask, though. He got closer to Yoochun. “That wouldn’t bother you, right?”

Yoochun looked at him. “Me? You know I do not feel anything for him, baby, I mean, I’m not saying that I don’t appreciate him as a person and a friend though.”

Junsu nodded. “I know, but he was your spouse for years, that must mean something.”

“It doesn’t, I do not feel anything for him and you know it.”

The other one nodded smiling finally. “But-”

“Let’s stop talking about this, okay? Didn’t you say that you were really tired?”

Junsu pouted but nodded either way. He used Yoochun’s chest as his pillow. “Good night, Chun.”

The mentioned brushed Junsu’s hair away. “Good night, baby.”

Even though Yoochun wasn’t really tired, he slept once Junsu was asleep. He was really happy things were getting better day by day. Even though Mr. and Mrs. Kim hated him for messing their family, he was glad they now understood more the situation. He was not going to leave Junsu no matter what they told him; that was for sure. Without embracing Junsu too tight, the man made him get closer to himself. Junsu was cranky most of the time, so it was really nice to have him like that for a change.

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The next day they began decorating the baby's room. Junsu was making a mess and Yoochun was trying to fix everything. First the men began painting, but Junsu hated the smell, so he went to the balcony that was placed on Yoochun's and his bedroom to drink some orange juice.

After Yoochun was finished the younger man walked inside looking at the beautiful purple room.

"Chunnie, you are awesome!" Yoochun narrowed his eyes. He was covered on purple paint. "Are you mad at me?" Junsu walked deeper inside, he was about to hug the man but made a face and hit Yoochun slightly on the chest. "You are so dirty, Chunnie!" the older man sighed. Junsu for as only Junsu was hard to handle, now a pregnant Junsu was just too much for Yoochun.

The man took the boy's hand leading him to the living room. "We'll wait until the paint dries."

Junsu nodded. He turned the television on. "Tomorrow I have to work," Yoochun said embracing the other man with just one hand.

Junsu pouted. "I don't want to stay alone."

Yoochun kissed his cheeks. "I know, baby, but I have to. Your parents and Jaejoong were kind enough to let me keep my position at the company. I cannot let them down."

Junsu knew Yoochun was right, but he didn't want to stay alone. Staying alone was so boring, plus it was painful, sometimes he was just really tired of sleeping and playing video games.

"What can I do before you come back?"

Yoochun smiled. "I haven't gone yet, baby. But maybe you can make some baby clothes or something like that."

"Baby clothes? How do you expect me to make baby clothes?" Yoochun shrugged.

"I'll buy you the necessary stuff tomorrow," Junsu nodded. He was sure that making baby clothes was something impossible, but it sounded better than not doing anything.

Once the paint was dried the man walked inside the bedroom again to finish decorating the walls. There were some really cute dolphin decorations around the pretty room; Junsu was really in love with the place. "We should do the same thing with our room, Chunnie."

Yoochun shook his head. "That'll be crazy; our room looks beautiful as it is." The other man pouted.

He was tired now. "I'll take a nap." Yoochun nodded.

Yoochun went to the kitchen to make some diner; Junsu was really sensitive with food because of the pregnancy. Yoochun wasn't good at cooking, but for Junsu and his change in mood he had learned to at least make what the boy wanted. He shook his head not believing what he was capable of doing for Junsu.

Suddenly, the bell rang. Yoochun left the things on the kitchen counter and went to open the door. In front of him was Junho smiling. "Come in."

The other boy did as said.

They walked to the living room where they sat to talk for a moment. "It has been a long time since the last time I saw you," said Yoochun with a smile on his face.

Junho nodded. "Yes, I'm really happy you found Junsu, when he told me that he didn't have the intention of coming back I really got worried." That was not long time ago, after the voice mail Junsu had called him back. He thought that Junsu was still in his apartment and that the reason why he never opened the door was because he just didn't want to see him. He went there a couple of times but Junsu never responded. He then tried calling Junsu, when the boy called him back he sure was really glad that this one sounded fine. Junsu told him that he was not in his old apartment anymore, he said that he was far away and that he couldn't tell him where but that he was really happy he had called him. Junsu had asked him not to tell Yoochun or any of his family members.

"Thank you for telling me." yeah, he didn't listen to his friend.

Junsu was talking nonsense and that's why he went to see Yoochun, he didn't tell him all of what his friend had told him, but he needed to make sure that Yoochun knew about Junsu’s disappearance. "I should have believed on him when he told me about his condition."

Yoochun shook his head. "It's fine, with all the things that happened I don’t blame you for thinking he was lying. But let's not talk about that, there is no sense on looking back into what could or couldn't happen."

"You are right. And where is Junsu? Taking a nap?"

"The baby is growing so much so Junsu gets tired really fast. He is harder to handle than I thought."

Junho laughed. "I believe you, man."

They talked and laughed for some more time when Junsu came out of the main bedroom. "Hey," said the sleepy Junsu.

Junho stood up and greeted the younger boy.

"What are you doing here, Junho?" Junsu said it in such a nice, cute, way that Junho didn't feel offended for such a question.

"Well, my friend, I came to visit you!"

Junsu smiled.

They all walked to the dining room to have their diner. Junsu wasn't really pleased with the taste of the food, but he smiled and nodded when Yoochun asked him if he liked it. Junho on the other hand told him that it was tasteless, and Junsu hit the guy because of that.

Once they were finished with the food Junho decided to go home. They were at the door bidding goodbye when suddenly.

"Ahh!"

Junsu was fast on the floor shouting in pain.

Chapter 20

A/N: OMG, SUN! there is only one more chapter and the epilogue! Well, I wished I could say more, but I'm tired since I just came from work. Sorry for the late update ;_;

genre: drama, genre: romance, genre: mpreg, pairing: jaechun, genre: angst, rating: r, length: chaptered (completed), pairing: yoosu

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