I deserve it all... still doesnt make it easier. As if it has any effect on anything else. Yet... I cant dispell it.

I find it easy to be true to myself sometimes..... to act as i am, or rather as who i am... or RATHER who i think i am... who i think i know i am?? anyways ( Read more... )

SO....

I am now the proud owner of a 1998 AUDI A4 2.8L, 30 VALVE, V6 QUATTRO

Ive decided as of 5 minutes ago... that the Audi gets the garage from now on. After experiencing the oxidation of my Accord... i just cant leave it outside in the elements over night (if i can help it).

How many of these do i need in my life... somewhat of a rude awakening... and im feeling a bit more empty than i could have percieved. Loneliest morning ive had in a long time. Had a nightmare last night... IM trying to remember what exactly transpired in the nightmare... but i can seem to grasp it again. I knew however... the minute i woke up from ( Read more... )

that inspire me to write in the fuckin thing boggle my mind...

Tim was right, i need to change somehow. I dont know how that is going to happen, but it needs to. I need to realize some truths about myself... and stay true to them. Whenever i ignore them.. they bite me on the ass and someone other than myself ends up getting hurt. Fuck me.

Ive got nothing good to say ( Read more... )

It feels like tommorow

Im Drunk at 4:47 pm, Wed, November 15th. I leave for Nicaragua in 10 days... suck my dick.

-JR

Nicaragua in ten days.

nicaragua in about 2 and a half weeks. yay. Exertion headaches.... boo. yay for starbucks... yay.