I want to go back to New York

[antiqrule1]

Tasha,
You know I love you, but I cannot take the constant criticism anymore. It's only been 3 days, and you cannot continue to attack every opinion I have and the way I carry on a conversation and the words I happen to choose and well, just about everything and anything I do.
It is a constant stream of criticism towards me. It is an old pattern, and

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[kyki]

I'm sorry. This is super harsh, but I think I understand how you feel. I am pretty harsh to my mother, it stems from my borderline personality disorder. I am not saying I know how you are with your mother, but what I mean is this sounds like something my mother could have written to me considering how much I get mad at her and fight with her. It's so painful to hear this, even if it's based in truth. I know personally that I try but I really cannot help it. I don't know what the story is behind this or what your relationship is with your mother, but I do know the sort of pain that this can make me feel. So I'm sorry that you have to feel this pain. I love you and I hope that you can work this out.

[antiqrule1]

Hey Kyki, Thanks for writing-I love you, too. I have it mostly figured out now, which just means that I've stopped arguing with my mother when she says narrow-minded things. The last blow-up we had was over her being completely agist. She's incredibly liberal, but she says so many things that make me shudder; she doesn't realize how backward they are, and it's in my personality to fight for what I believe is fair. I've realized, though, that there's nothing I can do to change her mind, expect to explain things to her with an infinite amount of patience, as though she's a child.

Still, yes, what she wrote was super harsh. I told her not to write me emails like that again. I still can't believe she used the word "shithead" haha...and wow.

[kyki]

Haha. I wasn't sure if that was the kind of term she normally used, it didn't seem very momlike.

I totally understand this. I won't go into my own issues because it's not about me, but I really do get this. I think I can understand what pain that would be like too. When people say things like this to me it cuts, like it literally feels sharp in my heart.

Hope you are well :)