yeah, relationships are hard. maybe i'm just afraid of the ultimate commitment...also, the child custody thing is huge. i'm just confused and things aren't going very well in that sector anyway.
yeah. but the sex thing was pretty humiliating...the give/take issue became a huge issue last night. not on my part... i'm sure you can put some of the pieces together.
anyway, i am just tired. depressed. my wellbutrin schedule is all crazy now that i work nights. i don't know exactly how to 'fix' myself in order to have more understanding and insight into our relationship.
i do love him, that hasn't changed. i just know that something has changed...i need to explore that aspect.
If it helps you smile ...kzOctober 20 2007, 00:10:31 UTC
I ran into an Anne Moore Doppelganger last night. She danced like you. She had that inexplicable power in her frame like you. (Honestly, there were times you physically bumped me that made me feel like a rib or arm was going to crack). She was wild and curly haired and beautiful. But she just wasn't you.
Re: If it helps you smile ...annetiboysOctober 20 2007, 00:34:51 UTC
ha. that's great. i wonder if she's happier...that way i could switch bodies with her and have a new chicago life. if only...
i like the way you described my dance. i'd describe it more like a tornado--a whirlwind of lanky limbs leaving destruction in my path...
i'm glad the pseudo-me made your night better. i got a message from grady the other day. seems he is single and still in hawaii. he said that reading my entries from the era in which he shattered my life have been useful during this time. strange, isn't it?
Re: If it helps you smile ...kzOctober 20 2007, 00:36:57 UTC
vmydarkstar and I are praying that Grady comes to his senses are returns to Chicago. I'd stay an extra few years for that. He and I actually get along a little too well. I feel bad for trying to sabotage his pursuit of you by disclosing that you're crazy.
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And sorry to hear about your relationship troubles...it's never fun and it's never easy.
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yeah, relationships are hard.
maybe i'm just afraid of the ultimate commitment...also, the child custody thing is huge. i'm just confused and things aren't going very well in that sector anyway.
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i'm sure you can put some of the pieces together.
anyway, i am just tired. depressed. my wellbutrin schedule is all crazy now that i work nights. i don't know exactly how to 'fix' myself in order to have more understanding and insight into our relationship.
i do love him, that hasn't changed. i just know that something has changed...i need to explore that aspect.
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Anyway, it made my night a smidge better.
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i like the way you described my dance. i'd describe it more like a tornado--a whirlwind of lanky limbs leaving destruction in my path...
i'm glad the pseudo-me made your night better. i got a message from grady the other day. seems he is single and still in hawaii. he said that reading my entries from the era in which he shattered my life have been useful during this time. strange, isn't it?
i miss your goth dance dress.
xo
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thanks for saying i don't look crotchedy and haggard. i'm kind of pleased that i never smoked or did drugs all hard...kinda saved my face a bit.
life is complicated. i just would like to take a break from reality...one not alcohol-induced and feel okay to laugh and cry or whatever.
p.s.--the offer for a friend to call during times of relationship drama still applies, darling.
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